-Jon Jon
-aHmAd IBraHIm graduate...
- Cadet Inspector...
-Hates backstabber...am a aimple guy actually
-LuVes gEo n bIo mAn....hOpE tAt pPl dUnt cAuSe fUrThEr dAmAgE tO eArTh
-Remember to tag before u leave....
sigh.... I don't know whether to be sad or happy....
Yes...i do get my a1 for my chi....but i don't feel happy about it...
few people congratulated me( kiddos to shutian who still remembers that i took o level...) ...cynical remarks, n i don't know what have you...it really made me feel sad la.... (N i somehow or rather make one cry after seeing my results....)
Sigh....
Is this what i want really...
Nobody is willing to share joy with me...
I just remember my entering in AI four years ago...that time, i was also a loner...This was because all my friends (those that are close to me) went to other schools (like Catholics High and Anderson Sec), and I was left alone...
I remember that we spent really good times with each other...one is even my growing up mate...
4 years has since then past...Am i still a loner...maybe yes and maybe not....One thing for sure...that are lesser people that are willing to share my joys and tears with...
I think i am now like a empty skeleton...As my o level are coming, more and more teachers will heap more pressure on me...*(Therefore i am not surprised when ilysa says that i am very familiar with the word stress...)..maybe i am blindly working hard, or maybe i am just living day by day...
I am really very tired of everything already...maybe i should work harder in my pri 6 (and not slack around...and it was my prelim which sent a serious warning sign to me) and not get into ai at all...I think i will be better off with my friends that i have spent 6 or more years with....
At the end of it, i will only get a piece of paper nia...
Is this what i really want?
I dunno really...
left;
6:33 PM
04 February 2007 5:25 PM
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New Month--Feb...
To feel happy or sad....(i dunno really)..
It seem that there is a tinge of sadness with me. a cold brutal fact that i have to accept...
i am carrying lots of expectations on my shoulder...it is only feb nia and i am starting to feel the heat liao...
I prefer the old system! The old system is whereby we have ca1...Under that system, i can at least chiong for the last minute. (well at least not last minute study la)...The new system forced me to study everyday...(which is not be style)...
P.S. Jia you to everybody...
NP...the stress of being a good NCO. We have done everything possible. Yet, the cadets dont wanna listen...(they are simply too stubborn or wat la). During my time, our sirs scolded like crazy la (all the kind of words u can expect la)...and yet we all try to listen n improve. For them arh, fat hope la... They don't even want to listen....
Being NP de NCOs is really can be very tiring...we can't pump the cadets like NCC(L) or NCC(S), we cannot scold (cause they damn emo...scold a little bit nia you can start to see tears streaming or you can expect to see super black and super long face for the rest of the day), cannot not scold (cause they will climb over our head). You tell me how to deal with such cases? Therefore, we got to be very creative to come up with different kinds of solution. How can we not be stress up? The best thing on last fri de training....6 causalities... power man...start training with 15 cadets end up only 9...(we only push up our training by a level and they start to not feeling well)
(giraffe even want to say that the cadets are damn weak....)