-Jon Jon
-aHmAd IBraHIm graduate...
- Cadet Inspector...
-Hates backstabber...am a aimple guy actually
-LuVes gEo n bIo mAn....hOpE tAt pPl dUnt cAuSe fUrThEr dAmAgE tO eArTh
-Remember to tag before u leave....
Very lag!!! I dont know what happened, but my whole computer was lagging when i was navigating ur blog...(It didnt happened when i visited my blog or ma de blog)...
Hiazz..so i shall "erm" reply to ur blog...
On XJ de behaviour
I sat with him for 2 years and i was the one (besides yoh) to know how well he has changed.
Sec 1 -- XJ de behaviour was overall gd. He did his hw diligently, when i had some maths qn 2 ask him, he will patiently see thru my workings and show me e way... I dont rmb if he had slept in class (even if have, also very few that i cant rmb). He was a responsible guy and was partly e reason for my improvements in maths....
Sec 2-- XJ de behaivour falls. My image of him declines. This partial due to his addiction to maple. He slacken his efforts in studies. He began not doing his hw and stuffs like tat. If u happened 2 pass by 2e1 de class room, u will see 1 table with a big stack of books. Pinky will be buried behind his books. I never wonder how he managed to study with tat pile of books on his desk. The image i had for him declined further when he fanned the fire of the rumor...well i DIDNT at tat point of time HATE him. I still treat him as my friend, n i did a project with him and ur di....(p.s. we didnt quarrel tat much..we still can chat on e phone 4 2hrs)
Sec 3--XJ de behaviour continues to fall...Sleeping in class la, not doing his hws la (using reasons like "so long as i can pass my add maths with flying colours can liao" or " i didnt have e time 2 do hw la") were unheard of if u compared him with his sec 1 de behaivour. He keep using boring as a reason in order 2 change his seats. He always tried to pick a quarrel with me la (not seen previously). For me, i hate his attitude but i dont hate him...Even diyana also cant stand his attitude. She reflected to me once tat he had big ego. As for now, i think tat it was inapporiate 4 me 2 dicuss e topics further (even though i wanted 2 say out my view on his change)... but i am afraid tat it might hurt alot of parties...
On Me Well, as for me, i think i am alrite and fine nw...thx for all the concern tat u have shown me over e weeks^^....
P.S. Erm ma arh...u realli dont know zhiyu de family well..let me give a brief summary. zhiyu belongs 2 e lim family, started out in 2004 when they discovered that they have 5 lims in e class. They formed a family...they are zhiyu, siling, jiahui, (e rest i 4get liao) . Their family gets bigger... If u managed to trace, u will find tat taima is jia hui de sis...so if u wanna ur bride price, ask from taima...
P.S.S Well, i dont think i will wait 4 u....i reliaze tat there wasnt much time left and i decided 2 chiong whenever i can....
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17 September 2006 1:44 PM
17/9/06
Yesterday, my blood nearly boiled...
For those who dont know, i was the examiner for the sec 1 promotion test...All the things that we say on wed (we had a extra lesson 4 them) wasnt done. The standard of the drill , using 1 word 2 say, horrible... i and zhi jun (another examiner) had a nice time marking the drills (coupled with e rain also)...To be frank, it was because i and zhi jun closed 1 eye, that they are able 2 pass their test. Han Wen (Zhi Jun de brother) disappointed me alot. Well, when you have a chairman as a sister, naturally you will have higher standard for her brother. Sorri, not even that he didnt do that, he fared even worse than e 3 Indian gals...
In summary: They have very "good memory". They couldnt even remember things that we said on wed...
Then after that they challenged us (zhi jun n i) in changing. In the end they failed do that....(let down)
For campcraft, i dont know how many times must tell them 2 shut up their mouth leh...they simply dont understand eng. Give them second chance (coz they r suppose 2 tell 7 knots in 1 min) by asking them 2 tie a random knot i say, they dont want. So i failed 2 person..wasnt a surpise also. I knew that my fiona mei was disappointed...she wrote something like i am disppointed n i am a failure on e white board...(as she said la)...For hurricane lamp still ok, except an incident that marred my heart. The N Land ppl simply had no brain de..."toot" i would say. You know y? An Alpha cadet jumped over a hurricane lamp while one of my cadet were lighting it up. What u think this is? Obstacles course? Do you know that it is super dangerous? What if his leg hits e lamp and all the glass shards flew? What if the kersone spilt on the floor while e cadet is lighting up? Cant u just walk (or run) another side? "toot" la...
In summary: They have no discipline. It was a letdown after so much hardwork we put in.
After that, the FA issue, a storm in a teacup...pharhiban said that he gt do things and mei feel tat she has been unrightly treated... 1 of them look like a scimpering cat (parthiban la)..n the other look like she wanna cry liao....So as a vice chair (it is my duty also) i decided 2 erm check things out la...well apparently this time i was not helping phathiban liao...coz i felt that tis time my mei was right la...n after that gt some questioning (not so serious la..talk talk onli)from pei yu mdm...n i tell her watever i know...she doesnt really looked quite happy...
Later, i heard from my mei tat actually pei yu mdm was also suspicous whether parthiban got do his stuff as a FA. n 2 prevent biasness, she decided 2 get info from me...hiazz...
Actually i didnt knew tat sec 3 squad had so much problems....I think tat my mei also had alot of wei qu la...from wat i hear from her just now...some1 had said tat e person had zhi jun as a kao shan, n therefore he/she doesnt need 2 be fearful of watever ppl. Aiya this kind of things cant be said in a few sentences de...
In summary: I got 2 worry e sec 1, sec 2 n sec 3...each of them needs immediate attention...
P.S. Yay (ma must be happi ^^) coz i long time nvm leave message 4 her liao... reformmatting ur comp is definately a heartbreak de...i also reformat my comp recently. I tell u e kind of feeling is not gd...all my precious music files were gone in a second....maybe u can try doing this...be4 u send ur comp 2 reformat, u can try 2 save (transfer) ur important doc in a portable harddisk....btw gd luck 4 ur exam..jia you ^^
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10 September 2006 4:48 PM
10/9/06
AHHHH!!
3 weeks 2 examination...looking at my planner 4 revision, it is tight, awfully tight...
And y i am still here?
Good question..i realise tat my procrastinating skills are getting better (all thx 2 some1...) and later i am going out...
I must ban myself from using the computer from now..if not i will be in a crisis..worse still, i have been undone by myself....
3 weeks...hw am i going to survive? Esp on weekends, i have planned 2 revise 4 subjects ( 1 subject 4 2 hrs)....I must suceed this time..no more carelessness this time...i must!
Jia you 2 everybody (This is most likely my last post be4 e exam starts...)
See ya everybody on 13/10/06..^^
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07 September 2006 12:17 PM
7/9/06
Now i can rant watever i like...
Time check: 12.33 p.m.
Weather: Sunny
Yea..iniatally i have a fear of going today...i dont wanna be a light bulb or a piece of wall again..n it is not nice to be 1...but since ma n her di insists on....
Man, i am tired (something which ma and her di wouldnot understand)....physically and mentally tired...(my mom would agree with mi)...maybe i should have follow what gomez had said..learning 2 say "no" and let go...but on the other hand, letting go would not be mi...(rmb, my disc de analysis say that i am a task orientated de person)...ppl seems to think tat i am a superman, a pro in watever thing...
take an example e chem project...i am sure that pinky and ma know e standard of wat i want de (as 4 zhi yu..i darent say)...i even take lengths to tell ma e format 4 referances..did she even take note? no...if she takes note of that, it would most probably save me a lot of energy (n ma de di de energy) and time as well...e person tat make mi most blood boil is pinky...he went with us to bio tech..he knows e standard of doing a report as well as a referances...n yet what he gave mi? A shitty piece of work that i made no tail or head with... If all of them did their work well (like ma de di who knows his stuff^^) did we even need 2 meet up on wednesday de afternoon? I sure tat 1 meeting on tues is enough...(shld say more than enough)...and i can save this precious time of mine to do my other work (np de proposal)...
Yea i could have tell ppl tat it is not that they dont have time but rather that they dont know hw 2 manage their time. But hw u expect mi 2 apply that 2 my life? I seem 2 have endless task 2 do and i haven yet started on my revision (which i tell myself tat i must start my revision this holiday)...whenever i finished 1 task, another will sure come ( i am not like gg de secretary who seems 2 be enjoying her holiday)...
Mentally, yes, i am tired... if u ask mi whether i am more tired last year or nw..i would say nw... Why? At least last year, i can sleep tight, no worries or nth 2 bother mi....
Hiazz...
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05 September 2006 7:00 PM
5/9/06
Hiazz..hw bad can my day gets?....
So...today they went to my hse 2 do chem de project. In the end, i ended up being a super megawatt de light bulb..this kind of feeling is not very great (as i have been left out yet AGAIN...)..if u ask my jasmine mei , she would probably agree with mi (2 hands up also)!
Then, i went 2 paragon...saw e road tat lead 2 loneliness...after my dental, my inner soul seemed to urge mi 2 take a walk down the road..(from orchard 2 city square de road...)...munching a curry puff, i decided 2 follow where my heart wanna go...as i walk, e feeling tat i felt last fri came back once again...it couldnt be helped by the fact that i myself had been feeling blue...
Feeling blue....
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04 September 2006 6:34 PM
4/9/06
Whew! Another day had just passed
With me having neverday tasks 2 do...hw can i have e time 4 my revision...hmm lets see what i have on hand: National Heritage Trail 06 n Unit Hike 2 take care of...(+ my hws..) How miserable can my holiday gets...
As 4 tml * drum roll....
What 2 expect? I have kindly pushed my dental appointment 2 3.45 p.m. as i know u guys de type.^^ As such (as well as my mom de kind gesture), she has kindly sponser u guys q bread de bread ( i know ma likes^^) n drinks (i think is fruit juice la), without needing 2 feel hungry. So, u guys can eat while we are doing the project. (My bro is now thinking that my mom is treating u guys as a VIP)....It also seem to me that u r having a house visit rather than chem project de meeting...lol...
P.S. Ma, i will try my very best 2 4get wat had happened...as an old saying: "let bygones be bygones"...i will also want to have another close friend rather than having an enemy. I will promised on my part (as i have alreadi shown in welcoming u guys 2 my hse) that i will try 2 let things return as normal...but u must also rmb wat u have said 2 mi....friends forever? *Hook finger.....
Hiazz
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03 September 2006 9:43 PM
3/9/06
( EC 17 de pics . Thx to all who made my OBS a fun 1^^n to all who help mi in 1 way or another..thx...)
Lol...another day had just passed...
Ma...there is no nid 2 say sorri 2 mi so many times de...e damage had alreadi been inflicted n there is no way tat i can reverse this pain that i feel...as 4 now, i shall accept ur sorries.... (btw rmb wat u have promised mi...i hate ppl who promised me and yet didnot fulfill what they have promised...)
What i need is ppl who can empathy me and not sympathy me...Isnt that easy?
Hiazz....
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02 September 2006 6:56 PM
Teacher's Day
Feeling blue....
Yup, yesterday was teacher's day and we "pei" miss tow 4 e whole day....
We gathered at yishun mrt station...funny enough, the always chao late de ma is so early today...soon, the others arrived and we set of to paragon....
be4 meeting miss tow...we went to taka 2 buy a gift for miss tow...after much debating, we finally settled on a mug...( some ppl still owe me $$..better owed up hoh)...
For the whole day, we went to catch a moive, eat saeke sushi, window shopping from orchard to marina square to seeing e merlion....
Yup, i do have a fun n enjoyable time yesterday, but something spoilt my mood...
well, ytd u all might have realized tat during the "trek" from orchard to city square, i was always ahead or behind the pack, maintaining my silence throughout. At 1 point of time i was even complaining of a gastric pain, till that u all think tat my action was due the above reason. u guys have asked mi the reason of my action, but i think i have avoided to ans the qn straight in the face...
so why?
Leading the way and having gastric pain are glorified reasons...they are NOT the main cause of me maintaining my silence or walking ahead/behind the pack...It was all due a simple and yet devasting reason : I felt outcasted... When edwin ask mi 2 shut my mouth for at least 5 min, i feel so much relieved...edwin had just found mi a perfect reason for not talking...for the whole day, u guys were like talking about japanese animation and of course music...both of which i have little interest in.... of course, i tried 2 change e topic alittle (tat sometimes explain my loud voice), but in the end it will always return back to the same topic...in the end i have learn to shut up, and let u guys enjoy urself...i was like thinking..why do i need 2 be a wet blanket?Spoilting all ur fun...nah, i felt that i can't do this..n of course naturally the outcasted feeling just came strongly...in the end, u might have observed this, or u might even not have, i prefer to stay with susan or with miss tow nearing the end of the trip.
Hiazz...
(Pls dont spread this story ard without my permission) well, been doing alot of thinking when i came home...to be frank, i had nth in common with ma besides talking about sc, taima n jas n of course school work....Do i watch jap animation? Nah.... Do i a passion for music like wat ma has? Nah..passion i darent say, but appreciation to music is to a certain extent... Do i even have a hp? Nah... (dont even dare to think of that)
Ma has tried to asked mi about the reason of results making a matter to mi...Had i told her straight in the face my side of my story? Nah...i feel that having to worry sc is too much 4 her...i dont wanna add another onto her fragile shoulder...but as i always say 2 jas or ma, bottling it in urself is not gd...i need an outlet, n to mi, my blog is my outlet....
I grew up in a rather average family...my dad, who did not have much education, had 5 mouths to feed...Those days, qualifications are important...my dad, not having much education, had not choice but to settle 4 a $1000+ job...imagine a $1000+ income feeding 5 mouths and having at least 2 (mi n my bro) kids tat r near schooling. Life was hard then. My dad had to scimp and save every penny that he had...he used to tell mi about he bringing his roti ( frm home) as lunch, while his other colleague enjoyed their lunch outside....Do i ,in the point of time, dared to think about my future? My future being able to play many musical pieces or even composing music or as a big doctor? My dad worked hard to provide me an education, which he realized tat as important. He, of course, dont want us to work the path which he had trodded...
At that point of time, i was still young ma...i didnt really think much...i continued to be the same old me...at that point of time, i didnt really ranked studying as my prime objectives...of course, my result tend 2 rise and fall abit...my mom, worrying about my studies, decided to went to work as well, in order to have a bit of leeway in the hse de $$, as well as to provide mi $$ for my tuition fees...did i realli think tat as an importance? Nah, i dot really think so...Till i saw my PSLE de results..though my mom didnt really say anithing or scolding me...but deep inside, i knew tat i had disappointed my mom alot....
So, i went to ai...with no friends from jing shan pri...suit me as well, as i am thinking...this is gonna to be a fresh start 4 mi i thought....well 4 e 1st three months, i had no (or rather few) friends..u ask pinky or ur di..they would agree tat i am damm quiet those days...i begin to make a few friends, but they r frenz that r rather superficial....i begin to chose a path, driven purely by my academic pursuits, but it was a path to loneliness and coldness at the summit. But had i tell myself to turn back when i begin 2 lose my friend one by one? No..i decided 2 continue on...as i begin my sec 2, i think i am rather a empty shell without any true friends de person, i think that were rather huge emo' de hole tat needs to fill in...n tats y i nearly fall into e trap set by pinky n friends...tat incident made mi woke up from my slumber...sec 3 yr was no where better, till i meet ma n her friends...ma soon becum my pillar of my support, my pillar tat i will look to for encouragements.....
Had u ask mi why did i own a hp? Who in the world dont want to have such things? I dare to dream, but i dont dare to ask 4 it...i dont wanna add burden to my dad n mum...days nowadays (when we moved to sembawang e time) was still ok, we werent tat poor, but neither are we tat rich...my mom realized tat it will be soon very hard 2 satisfy both me n my bro de wants... so i nw had a internet connection...but do i dare to ask for a higher speed de internet speed? Nah.. i nw had a computer...but do i dare to ask my mom to buy another new de computersince it was rather old? Nah... i nw had a tv...but do i dare to ask for a cable de tv?Nah..i dont dare to, as i know tat evry penny tat my dad n mom earned was bloodshed.
So as 4 nw, i think tat i am at a cross road...shld i continue (but having high chances of me being left out) or shld i turn back (where i most likely will return back to my old shelf)....i dont know, seriously....
