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Well, at this point, i think that it is appropriate for meto tell my side of the story (This entry is delicated to ma n pinky only...pls ignore!!)
"I really dont like ma la...hw many times must u ask mi...i treat her just like my sis nia" Pinky...
Reality threw me right in... I may be nodding my head as pinky said this, but in reality, i didnt believe it. flashes of memories flashed in my mind...this was about three months ago ba...
Three months ago, i noticed a sudden change in pinky's behaviour. He seems to develop a liking to play with ma's hair. He seems happy when he was with ma. You noe, it was like everyday he was ka jiao(ing) ma everyday. At that point of time, i thought that pinky had a big crush with ma...tats all nia!
At the woodgrove primary campfire night (tats about 1 month later), ma was quite curious as to why jas n huimin noe it as well...she thought that it was i hu told them, but seriously, i didnt ok. Maybe it was pinky hu told them, i dont noe! That day was also when i felt that things were getting abit serious...but at that time i was only thinking about 1 way love nia (pinky like ma la)
In the holiday, we didnt really communicate with each other, ma was busy with her stuff n i was busy with mine...
'Take ur time to think thru wat u really wants...no one can influence u to make a decision" July 08, the big confession i get from ma...well things were definately getting more n more serious liao...i can sense the confusion in ma, and i managed to talk things out of her...at the same time, i managed to find myself a soul mate, one who i can really trust to and talk to
A few days later, i decided to help pinky. I felt that they like each other and thus i decided to butt in...what i get from pinky was shocking! He didnot like ma! Well, given the surroundings (i tok to him in class), i convinced myself that he was just joking nia...n maybe even because of me...
To cut things short, i ask him yet again (he find me a pain in e neck liao)at the Jubilant Concert. He gave mi a negative ans la...it was only a few minutes later that i recovered from the shock. I decided to help ma since i couldnt help pinky liao...I was like telling him:" Ma is just on the edge of the (love) river...if u like her gd la, u can jump with her into the river...if u dont pls pull her back...lest she gets hurt even more."
Ytd, ma finally noe the truth liao...ma was hurt la (obviously)...she sounded ok when she was breaking the news to me, but i noe deep inside her heart, her heart was like being slashed a million times...n tat she was feeling really hurt. She didnt felt like talking to mi, and i didnt really press her 2 tell...(afterall, i had not went thru all this la)...I left her alone when i knew that she contacted her 2 best frenz....
(Personal message to both of them)
To ma: I noe that u felt hurt, but take this like a passing metorite...I noe that this is hard, this nid more than ur courage to move on, but dont forget that is always sc, rt n mi are always there for u...dont always take things too hard...well if think that wat ur going thru is sicking , well, then u really dont noe that u r really living in bliss la...last year (u noe wat i go thru la), i was so damm alone la, no one tat i can trust, no one that i can talk to, no one really cared for mi lol, sometimes i felt like crying...but well, u r diff, u got sc, rt and mi down there caring for u n even sharing ur woes with u...dont tink too much about wat others say (it can be hurting sometimes) but ignore them lol....Realli wish to see a happy u soon...
To Pinky: Well, i dont realli noe wat's going through u mind la...but sometimes i wished to open the big brain of urs and really to analyze u carefully. I was always thought that u like ma u noe...well...even if u dont like her, can u be a bit more tactful...telling her staright in e face wouldnt help...gals r emotional being...u muz understand...n telling sc tat u r juz playing nia makes things even worse...cant u juz stand in her perspective? And yeah, i heard about e incident in class liao...well is it that u wanna hurt her emotionally n phyiscally so tat she will hate u n maybe not like u! Well tats down right stupid la...u gonna 2 hurt her even more....Feel like smacking ur face on the wall u noe!