Welcum 2 my world

Photo Essay of POP

2007-12-27T18:18:00.003+08:00

~Bravo DO7 In our No 1~ (Look at our rank....before)

(...and after....)

(Our CII, Jasmine Mdm & Pei En Mdm. They have helped all of us alot during the 9 days RC, never failed to motivate and encourage us, pushing and poking us from the back.. )

(Stylio right? Showing off our proud rank... )

(Bravo with our course manager....and our

course coordinator Soon Keng sir... want to fight is it? haha)

( Look at Joel... *(from his blog: The Otahs are addictive =)))

( Thinking and reflecting of their actions in course... what is Jeremy doing? don't look funny leh...)

(Joel, Dzafir, Jeremy and I together with our 2 mdms...

and the rest of us with mdms... arh... don't cheat my feelings leh....)

(me & lizzie...no wings yet...)

( 24 Bravo Squad mates =) and 2 great instructors....
~ When I say I am from d07 Bravo, the sky is all that i can see... Pang)

(Ooops.. I have forget to add in the part during my last post... So the story goes...

Feeling hyper, we pestered Jasmine Mdm and Pei En Mdm to join our squad for the march back to room 53 for COA. pEI eN mdm refused (aww..sad)(and because she is in no 3 and we are not...)! But Jasmine Mdm agreed to... hurray! And our I/C personal? Of course is HO la...Till Caine Sir comes along and we pestered him to be the I/C...

It seems all right in the first place.. We were all marching very happily, though our timing was very chui la.. (that why jasmine mdm toke over the timing). Then, at the admin block, Pua Wei sir asked: " Who the hell is your I/C?) (Coz we are not supposed to be so loud at the admin block ma) Classic scene.. you know why? Caine sir was our I/C and Jasmine Mdm is our timer... lol sia...

~D07 Bravo Ninjia Turtles rulez!~

(P.S. Bravo gathering at Chong Pang.. dots.. when i just live near-by Chong Pang, I had to take train all the way to Boon Keng to go to that Chong Pang.. Yet, we have an enjoyable time though...)

One last quote: "Don't stop when you are tired, stop when you are done..." FI Instructors...

2007-12-23T12:27:00.001+08:00

~Yeah! POP is over and we are now CI! (haha)~

The day could have ended on a higher note had not been the impeding rain that douse out the spirit a little. Oh how fair was heaven to us!

We reported at the drill shed on 7.30a.m. It was a tiring affair for me as i stayed up late to do my uniform... We practiced the DO7 formation till it was very nice; we practiced our rifle drills and our footdrills for the parade, yet because of the rain we had to cancel all this.....

Imagine all our disappointment when we were told that the rain (oops, it is not the rain that matters but the lightning that was observed). A simple affair was held in the Harmony Hall...Nonetheless, we still pass out as a batch, as 73rd batch of CI! Yeah... All the hard work that we put in did not go down to drain at all! Yeah

As Miss Chong simply puts it...we are going to be busy for the rest of the years liao...it also meant having more responsibility towards the unit and the corps itself...

(A song which the CII presented during the campfire... a very touching and meaningful song.. n here's the lyrics =) )

Learn to fly-- A1

When you feel the dream is over
Feel the world is on your shoulders
And you lost the strength to carry on
Even though the walls may crumble
And you find you always stumble through
Remember never surrender to the dark
Cuz if you turn another page
You will see thats not the way
The story has to end

And if you need to find a way back
Feel that you're on the wrong track
Give it time, you will learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
And you will find your own way
You will be stronger with each day that you cry
Then youll learn to fly

In your head, so many questions
The truth is your procession
The answer lies within your heart (within your heart)
You will see the doors are open
If you only dare to hope
And you will have a way back to fight
The fears that kept you down
Cuz if you turn another page
You will see thats not the way
The story has to end

And if you need to find a way back
Feel that you're on the wrong track
Give it time, you will learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
And you will find your own way
You will be stronger with each day that you cry
Then youll learn to fly

Looking at your situation
Theres so much that you can do
Nows the time to make your stand
This is just an observation
In the end its up to you
The futures in your hands

And if you need to find a way back
Feel that you're on the wrong track
Give it time, you will learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
And you will find your own way
You will be stronger with each day that you cry
Then you will learn to fly

Give it time
You will learn to fly

D07

2007-12-19T19:51:00.000+08:00

~What is the day now... I feel so out of world la...~

Looking back at my 9 days RC and 4 days ATC, I have no regrets for coming to the course...

For my 9 days RC, i really have alot of fun with my squad mates Bravo and my grp instructors, Jasmine mdm and Pei En mdm. Although the RC is not an easy one, but with constant encouragement from one-another, the time seems to pass very fast! It was a going back to the basics kind of things and i have learnt really alot from my 2 instructors... Bravo roxz! I can see that the way that i teach last time is really not very zai one... I will miss jasmine mdm and her funny languages like :" super bo say" "zian la" and her " love " towards spider...

I will miss everyone in my squad who came my help all the time and motivate me on: Joel for being a funny person who will strive hard to work on whatever task that is given to him; Jeremy for his helpfulness and his timely help all the time (who always help me in the log); Jia Hao( the HO ) and Jia Sheng whose funny antics never failed to cheer us up; Russel the person who graduated from K9 BTC is a person who never failed to cheat my feelings (first is i dont love u anymore, then dont cheat my feelings, then dont friend you anymore); Desmond for sharing to us his knowledge of campcraft; Kah Wei for being the silent worker and motivator, Dzafir and * whom we love to poke fun of him during course; Derrick and Benson is also another two silent worker, esp Derrick but they all have the substance deep down!; Kang Wen for his funny timing (left, right, left right all the time and because of this we are often super auto!); qaiyuum for always being my motivator (everybody before course was like saying that he couldnt have possibly made through, but he perserved! for that, i saluate him); and Rahimi who never failed to lead us on!; Ain and azarani for always being there: zhuang yi the natural leader that make ppl look upon her; zhi junm for being my best squad mates for yrs; jolene for being the funny one; elizabeth for being funny and lame all the time ( What is the rule for butter: dont spread!); cleopatra for being there and her funny languages; jiaxin-- my boss and mas---

(sorry for being such a long one....)

I am sure that we all learn alot from each other... really looking forward to my POP!

As for the ATC at Ubin, I wouldnt say much about it...

~Little by little, one walks fast....~

2007-11-26T13:19:00.001+08:00

Is having a hp that important? Take for today for example: I am supposed to be down for the Making day (or so it seems to me). Yet, no one tell me anything about it during the weekend... Another example? I am the last one to know about the training in the holidays (for the campcraft competition and the AOP). In short, I am always the last one to know everything, be it for work or personal stuff.

To that I can only come up with two reasons:

1) Since I don't have a hp, it is difficult to contact me (like what Chi Peng had said). Thus it is not surprising for me not to know anything.

OR

2) I eat glass for life. Thus no one cares about my existence...

I used to comfort myself with the first one. Now, I am more inclined to think that the second one as the more likely explanation...

2007-11-22T16:10:00.000+08:00

(~I am tired. Yawns....~)

Been busy for these 3 days...going to chalet on mon, going to training on tue and the uniform collection at HTA on wed to complete the marathon.

On wed, i drag my weary body and prepare for the collection. ( I slept at 12 that night before as i need to prepare the docs required for the uniform collection. I must say that i am stunned at the no of things that they requires). I met with jun before going there and it turns out that she is also not having it better than me ( she slept at 2 because she wanted to settle some np stuffs).

At first, it didn't look as scary as what Ahmad had described. None was scolded because they were late. All was peaceful and a rather relaxed mood. Nothing else happened when we submitted our respective forms to the instructors. Then, the scoldings gradually came. It was tolerable though.

Actually it is kind of sad to see others having fun out there while yourself is not. But, what to do? I have my commitment towards the unit and i still want to see it grow. In that sense, it means that i do have to give up some things...

2007-06-23T20:53:00.000+08:00

Sad sad....School Reopening soon!

Checking my home -work list

1) Add Maths 4 Prelim/Mid yr Paper

(Done except for Nan Hua)

2) Chi Assignment

(Done =)

3) Bio Papers

(erms?...)

4) EMaths 125 Qns

(Completed 103/125 =)

5) Geo

(erms....)

Actually, school reopen = exams are coming!! Stress!
(Hopes my decision to join UGC amd SC camp willl not be wrong=)

Haha....

Exams are coming soon.. which means to say i do have to make a decision between poly and jc.
Recently, i received a letter from sp, inviting to attend a talk that they organised (well that is indeed surprising, considering that i have no connection with sp!) That letter forced me to rethink about my decision though, but i think i am most likely going to jc. Why? Like what spider had said, i am not a practical person, i requires facts to drive me on. Therefore, i am better off in a jc...

Ironic isn't it? But that means to say that i have to work hard for the rest of the months! Ermzz, for that i really need some motivations to drive me on!

Mon-- EMaths& SS Paper

(Gd luck! =))

SC Camp Briefing

2007-06-11T12:49:00.000+08:00

~Seriously, I do have a feeling of not attending after attending the briefing.`

Not that I am fickle-minded, but the planning sucks.....

What is the use of a briefing when it is just stating the obvious?

Incident no 1:

(when talking the part on Sembawang Park)

XJ: My Part A took 1 hr to trek to Sembawang Park, and you are telling me that it is 1hr to and fro journey.

(i forget what sindhu had said already, but it was something like it will take 1/2 hr_)

VP: aiya, if not just push back la...

Yea, those who have the experience of planning camp will know this theory. But the fact that the VP said something like that showed 1 thing: EXCOs are not even confident of their own planning!

The details of the event at Sembawang Park is sketchy. All we were told is that it will be like an amazing race style and there will be a fashion show at the end.

Yea, and I have 101 Qns to ask (not even touched on):

1) Who is going to stay in school to look after the belonging? If it is the logistics people, who are they? And what are they going to do in school?

2) What if there is a heavy downpour? Are the campers going to a shelter and shelter there or are they going to continue on but wearing poncho?

3) I heard that there is going to be a picture clue. If there is a heavy rain, how are you going to prevent the paper from getting wet?

4) Pending to the fashion show: Is there any theme? How long are you going to let them prepare? 1/2hr?

5) What if there is a downpour during the course of preparation/ duration of fashion show? Are you going to house them in a shelter? If yes, what shelter are we using? How far are they from the playground? Is it big enough to hold everybody? (the experience for me is that you will need at least 2 shelter).

6) How long is the treasure hunt going to be? 1 hr? What if the campers cannot finish on time? Are you going to

(i) Drag the programme
or (ii) Ask them to report back

7) There are bound to have medics for the event. But where are you going to put them? With the station or at the checkpoint?

See? Can anybody tell me the use of a briefing?

I dont even bother to bring it up because i feel that the vp is just trying to go through motion. See the reply that she gave to xj and you will understand.

And the excos are even not firm in their decision!

What makes a good leader? It is true that a leader do need to listen to his people for ideas, but when it is time to make a decision a leader is supposed 2 be firm!

Iniatially i was told 2 prepare campfire while daryl, yang qin and sim ying go out to buy stuffs. Now, it seems that i need not do so! Instead daryl and co will do campfire (and no one seems 2 bother about the food buying!)

2007-06-07T19:25:00.000+08:00

2 1/2 weeks to mid yr?

Lols...

Going to another camp soon....when it is like 1 week before exam?

Fredrick (yong) was like predicting how many people will do badly for mid yr exams....

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To be frank, i wasn't really wanted to go for camp. It was only on the part of the shortage of manpower that i decided to go....( i also because i told ong that i wanted 2 back out of e video thingy)

true to what ying` had said, UG camp was a reflection of what each UG was good at....But that was only the programme, what makes a camp successful is the people involved in it....

A mirror with cracks will never work like a mirror that is perfect. No matter how much you assured people that your relationship is fine, there are bound to have some differences that have yet to be solved. How can you expect people to work with each other again? How can you expect people to trust you again?

With just like 2 months before we step down, i think it is high time that we make the camp a successful one....the consequences of not doing so will means that the council will continue the landslide till nowwhere....esp. if the sec 3 leadership skills have still be remain 2 be seen.

Combined UG Camp

2007-06-04T13:37:00.000+08:00

~Woots~

3 days (actually is 4 days for the com) and 2 night camp ended on a high note! Well done guys...

Day0

The committee members went to school ,despite the fact that it was Vesak Day, to prepare for the camp. We had some fun packing the logistics and playing basketball (before qin, jun, yong and sindhu came).

Then we went to eat our prata and had a whopping fun time with yong joking with us.
One of his a 'jokes"

Yong: " After sindhu left, there are only 1 gal with us right?"
(he forgot the fact that jun is a gal too...)

Haha...

After filling our stomach, we began to do our night walk. It don't really looked very scary as i was thought because of the moonlight.

Some of the com biked back while the rest (yoke, qin, xj and me) took yong's car back. It ended up a session of talking horoscope .

Quite true la....

Back at school, we continued packing our stuff. The night nearly ended in frustration when we found out that there was a shortage of gadget poles. Really sorry to sindhu as we had to ransacked her room to get the rest.

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The rest of the camp went. It had of course its high and downs.

The frustration for me started when some of the sec 3 did not come for camp as promised. We had pined alot of high hopes on people like Nazeerah, Farhanim. Yet, they didn't turn for the camp without a reason. How irresponsible this people are...

For those scouts who didn't turn up, mr yong forced them to pay $30 each. But we can't possibly do that to np....

Day 1 ended with a high note with the campers cheering the whole house down. Mr yong said that he nearly went deaf....good...

`Mood was high`

Day 2 was the most tiring day for the camper.

It was the first time that i tasted something using the fire that we built from leaves and twigs. With spider's experience, the fire that the comm set up was clearly the best among the other groups. Alpha, for once, had created a lot of air pollution that lead to quan and i commenting of the psi value being high. Haha...

The potato that cooked from the pit tasted yummy (taste like potato chips). And I managed to eat 4 of them (till i get sick of them)....

The day ended with the night walk. It was damm exciting.

Case 1: 10s scream

There was this camper who was scared by the props that we set up. Her scream last for 10s (even when she was walking...) [mr yong counted it] And wee kiat was like going omg.

Case 2: Wei Lee scaring the instructors instead of the other way around

I think she managed to scare a instructor and the rest of them were scolded by her. Haha!

Case 3: Some of the boys were scared even before they went in...

(in contrast with xue bing wanting to go in alone)

erm...i got nth to say for this....

The night hike back became a speed test. At first, i thought all campers will reach school at 4 a.m.. But i think i underestimated them. Jia yang began to challenge me to a speed walk. I was like ok as i dont want him to be too far in front of me. I was chasing after him (and i nearly ended up running). [ After the camp, he was like asking me if i want to have another trek with him again. haha]

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2007-05-29T20:36:00.000+08:00

ROD. Here are some memories of the parade.

(Picture extracted from Yong Quan's blog =)

Quoting what quan said: " Without NP, I would not know you guys..."

Yup... Who would ever forget the camp-craft competition that we trained so hard for? Who would forgot the fun times we had at ATC? Who would ever forget the challenging time we had planning the National Heritage Trail? Who would ever forget the fun and yet tough times that we had when we were taking a squad?

Maybe it was fate that brought us together. But without NP, I would definitely not know a lot of people. The sweetness, the bitterness that we had gone through definitely would made these count.

Memories are made to be made. And I am not regretting the choice that I had made in Sec1 to join N.P.C.C. Besides learning foot-drills and camp-craft, it has shaped me physically and physiologically. It has made me mature as a person. It has matured my leadership skills.

But, I am now at a cross road. Should I come back as CI and continue to renew my passion for N.P.C.C or should I start afresh in another C.C.A. in J.C? The first choice seems like a better choice, doesn't it? But look at the state that the unit is in. I definitely will not mind to come back and continue my service, but C.P. had put me off as a person and also as a leader.

Well, it can be my personal problem with him. But how could that be the case when all my sec 2 and 3 squad don't like him? He works like Mr. Fong, an autocratic style that I don't like. Need to explain any further?

Should I come back, it would be the secondary two squad that have swayed my decision. (Quan agreed this fact too =).

Sign.....

Achievement Day

2007-04-01T18:03:00.000+08:00

Achievement Day..Came and past...

erm...wat shld i say...looks pathetic though....

Yupp...did our best for the parade...so glad that nth went wrong for the parade...=)

And then the main concert....it was still ok....

Till the long speech by mr chia on love and the five doors to love....

At first, e 3 of us (ting xuan, si wei and i) dunt understand wat he is talking in the first place....we were there laughing (didnt really meant it though) at his english. And then followed by a long speech about love and marriage, which really puts us off...and the 5 doors of love (senses and blah and blah)...

All that long speech, was the prize presentation... i see mei su, Evelyn they all so pathetic... Mei su was supposed to lead Mr. Chin up stage...yet she ended up looking more like a model...So i kindly listen to their "woes" before going on stage 2 receive my prize. haha....(they indeed look very ke-lian)...

After i get off-stage, mr faizal was the first to congratulate me and hope that i will do all the best for my coming o levels=)...

It was indeed very boring and thus i and ting xuan decided to escape from the hall...
Phew! Spare me all the agony of watching the concert!

So...

When i go up to the hall to find my mom, i was shocked to see 1/2 to 3/4 of the hall empty. Pathetic! (Later, all the UG members were supposed to lead in the singing of the school song/...cause if not will look very em brassing ma..)

This yr de buffet also very (again) pathetic... Last yr, the buffet was at least better....

Sigh...school really very budget le~!

NCO CAMP

2007-03-13T21:47:00.000+08:00

Camp--finally over :)

I heaved a sign of relief as I finished my duty for camp...

Most memorable Moment-- Promotion Test

Promotion test in the middle of the night. Can imagine that? On Sun, 11 March, the sec 4 had their test on 1 p.m. and lasted till 3 p.m. Everybody was tired of course....Drills standard has been compromised...We all got lots of screw up la...and even Pei Yu look tired as well....

Most "Tiring lecture'-- 7 Habit

This was the lecture that i feel like sleeping through it. After having the same lecture for last yr as well as the me choosing not to sleep on sat night, I almost fell alseep..which was not suppose be the case as i am suppose to be a role model ma...

Most tiring lesson-- Basic Drill

As the lesson is conducted in a round robin, groups has to be split into 3...1 grp taking basic drill, 1 grp taking intermediate and the other taking arms drill. Instructors are supposed to examtthem on MOI. Therefore, as most of them made the same mistake, i has to say over and over again the same thing for 3 times...

Most Happiest Moment-- Getting the rank

Most Funniest moment--WCI Jia Ying being teased.

Break camp. Pack up. Everybody was tired. Jia ying began to fall alsleep on a chair. No matter how loud we shout, she still went asleep. Therefore, the CI begin to hatch a plan. They put cones around her, cordoned off the area.and place lots of stuffs in that area--milo tin, hurricane lamp, can food, pail, broom, and every thing (look like an exhibition) . ..with the word AUNTIE written across.

We take lots of pictures of course. ~evil grins~

How did we wake her up. We set her hp and place it on her lap. Then cp call her on hp..she woke up..after realizing the things we have done, she look damn embrassed la....

~The rest of the details i will man man fill u in later~

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2007-02-09T18:33:00.000+08:00

sigh.... I don't know whether to be sad or happy....

Yes...i do get my a1 for my chi....but i don't feel happy about it...

few people congratulated me( kiddos to shutian who still remembers that i took o level...) ...cynical remarks, n i don't know what have you...it really made me feel sad la....

(N i somehow or rather make one cry after seeing my results....)

Sigh....

Is this what i want really...

Nobody is willing to share joy with me...

I just remember my entering in AI four years ago...that time, i was also a loner...This was because all my friends (those that are close to me) went to other schools (like Catholics High and Anderson Sec), and I was left alone...

I remember that we spent really good times with each other...one is even my growing up mate...

4 years has since then past...Am i still a loner...maybe yes and maybe not....One thing for sure...that are lesser people that are willing to share my joys and tears with...

I think i am now like a empty skeleton...As my o level are coming, more and more teachers will heap more pressure on me...*(Therefore i am not surprised when ilysa says that i am very familiar with the word stress...)..maybe i am blindly working hard, or maybe i am just living day by day...

I am really very tired of everything already...maybe i should work harder in my pri 6 (and not slack around...and it was my prelim which sent a serious warning sign to me) and not get into ai at all...I think i will be better off with my friends that i have spent 6 or more years with....

At the end of it, i will only get a piece of paper nia...

Is this what i really want?

I dunno really...

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2007-02-04T17:25:00.000+08:00

New Month--Feb...

To feel happy or sad....(i dunno really)..

It seem that there is a tinge of sadness with me. a cold brutal fact that i have to accept...

i am carrying lots of expectations on my shoulder...it is only feb nia and i am starting to feel the heat liao...

I prefer the old system! The old system is whereby we have ca1...Under that system, i can at least chiong for the last minute. (well at least not last minute study la)...The new system forced me to study everyday...(which is not be style)...

P.S. Jia you to everybody...

NP...the stress of being a good NCO. We have done everything possible. Yet, the cadets dont wanna listen...(they are simply too stubborn or wat la). During my time, our sirs scolded like crazy la (all the kind of words u can expect la)...and yet we all try to listen n improve. For them arh, fat hope la... They don't even want to listen....

Being NP de NCOs is really can be very tiring...we can't pump the cadets like NCC(L) or NCC(S), we cannot scold (cause they damn emo...scold a little bit nia you can start to see tears streaming or you can expect to see super black and super long face for the rest of the day), cannot not scold (cause they will climb over our head). You tell me how to deal with such cases? Therefore, we got to be very creative to come up with different kinds of solution. How can we not be stress up?
The best thing on last fri de training....6 causalities... power man...start training with 15 cadets end up only 9...(we only push up our training by a level and they start to not feeling well)

(giraffe even want to say that the cadets are damn weak....)

2007-01-26T20:37:00.000+08:00

Sigh....

Today we went to the Swami Home....

Seeing those old folks make me feel sad....they like already immune to everything in life already la....(N) u can see their eyes...they actually gazing at a distance...maybe hoping to see their grandson or son ba....how sad....

Luckily i still have a grandma who is not like that...

Which make me wonder what life all about...isiz that once ur old, u will be left aside....

~

Today, CCA parade was so fun....Miss Nah talked about some eng de mistakes...

Teacher: Do you cut ur hair?
Student: I cut myself...

(tis is really funny...)(no offense though)

` The rest i didnt listen...i was marking attendances...

~

No more world peace le...

I am sick and tired of everything liao....

~

Something meaningful 2 take note:

Golden Rules for living:

If you open it, close it
If you turn it on, turn it off
If you unlock it, lock it up
If you break it, admit it
If you can't fix it, call someone who can
If you borrow it, return it
If you value it, take care of it
If you make a mess, clean it up
If you move it, put it back
If it belongs to someone else and you want to use it, get permission
If you don't know how to operate, leave it alone
If it is none of your business, don't ask question
If it ain't broke, don't fix it
If it will brighten someone day, say it
If it will tarnish someone's reputations, keep it yourself.

(From Chicken Soup for the Soul 3)

CCA Open House

2007-01-14T15:42:00.000+08:00

CCA Open House has ended!

Phew!

The day was in-fact a memorable day for us...Coz almost all the sec 4 NCOs skipped lunch (coz we are very busy)...All thanks to the arrangement, we ran from 1st floor to 4th floor and vice versa...(derrick say that it is a slimming exercise...which i agreed :) )

Yup...I wore no 1 uniform. Below is the pic taken with yq.
Nice? Haha! (Slim down liao...)

The CCA Open House went off at 3. At 1 point of time, there are 3 class at the same time...which almost cause I and zhi jun not able to handle it. Besides that we talk till our saliva dry...(which mrs chua took pity on us...she advise us to drink more water..:)

What I am happy to see was that some people went up to me to reflect that they wanna join np when i haven even started! ( my friends from n2 la...maybe because i brain washed them...)N i saw some parents from NPCC! It was a nice time to talk to them as well as sharing the experiences.

Overall, I think it is a very good effort...esp the fancy drill team!

Here are more pictures:
Uniforms on display>....

Display area....

Fancy drill team. >...

P.S. I dont like ppl giving away my house no (esp without my consent) to ppl whom i dont know very well.... This is because i dont like to be interrupt. Let this incident be a warning to others ba... What done has been done..and cannot be undone...

gtg...i want go revise my work le....

2007-01-03T16:43:00.000+08:00

Well..i don't know how to describe my day...good? bad?

Lets say the bad first ba!

Today, i am taking the secondary ones for orientation programme. I took the class 1n2. Actually, i don't know how to say about the secondary ones, but i just feel that it is getter worser and worser. Ask to them to gather in a circle (easy enough right?)...never mind about them taking their own sweet time, but i don't think they understood the meaning of a circle! They can form their line and take forever to do it....and then there is this "couple" who like to quarrel with each other over very small issue...i don't see the point la....

I seriously don't know how to tahan them for another 2 days...and I am reaching my limit la....And I can wish and congrats jas all the best when she takes them for Talent identification! *Must prepare pail in case you need to vomit blood.

I am so so glad that I DID NOT WENT to the secondary one camp...if not i think derrick need to call S.C.D.F liao...

The Good thing..

I managed to win a point in the UOPA for N.P.C.C le...Coz..i cam in third in a Holy Innocent High Photography Competition...Not only that I get myself another $30 Popular Voucher (not again...)[ First prize got $100 Popular Voucher, Second got $50)..(I think ma saw my work:)...)...I also managed to win a point ( if u joined a competition, when u come in first, u will have 3 pt, 2nd, u will have 2pt...third u will have a pt)...

So do u think my day is gd or bad...it is up to u to decide!

2007-01-02T10:34:00.000+08:00

(sorry for not posting for such a long time...) :P

First post of the year 2007. Haha!

Hows everybody? Still doing ok?

Hmm new year resolution?

Let's see...jas not emo any more...everybody has gd health, do well in your o levels so as to get into ur dream jc/poly....everybody in a happy mood...world peace...

Me arh? Maybe become a better leader in np ba...at lot of events coming up le like AOP, AGM, Open House, Sec 1 swearing, annual camp, sec 1 welcome party, ATF...blah...also hope that i do well in my o levels...must do well this time...

so everybody must jia you k?

Hmm...let see...

Q1) 2007= new and good beginning? Prove the above equation. (5 marks).

1. GDP is improving. A lot of ppl got jobs to do...unemployment rate low (2.8%)...Singapore has gd growth in 2006. 7.7%. 2007 becomes brighter in prospectives.

2. GST increasing to 7% means more money 2 spent for government..which means better health care blah blah...

3. It is a new year! After the earth rotates around the sun for 360 (sometimes 361) days, it is finally a new year. It is spring now! Everything on Earth wakes up after hibernating in the winter time. (like the bear n blah blah). What beats having everything back?

4. It is a new start! Why? Coz you can do everything again (though not every thing on Earth)...for those who did not do well can jia you for this year. If you believe in yourself, u can de!

5. There are 11 new year baby(well born in the wee hours of 1 Jan la)! This is of course a very good start to 2007!

Happy? See? I didn't use any trigo formula! :P 1 pt+1 explanation= 1 mark...

2006-12-22T16:43:00.000+08:00

* Dead beat....

Having a training marathon this week. We almost turn into track n field liao (1 week 3 times training ma)!

Today's training was very fun. I never see a cadet so enthu for training... Maybe it is because of the fancy drill ba.... They not only enjoyed every part of the training, but also grabbed every free time they have to train....sia la!

Then later, we found out that the three of us brought Christmas presents for the cadets.( i thought i n quan buy nia ma)....Haha... It is just only sweets nia... N yet, all of them go crazy with sweets! At 1 point of the time, i thought they never see sweets be4 in their life....haha!

Then, we then went to mac to eat lunch la....sia la....we took so many photos....next time i will show u...k?

And now..i doing my hw...i am trying to find a suitable song....

See ya!

2006-12-12T11:15:00.000+08:00

Ma..u lose..coz still have roughage! Evil grins....

2006-12-11T16:31:00.000+08:00

My 101th entry!

I want to thx all my readers for your continued support...:P

Doing nothing much nowadays...it is mostly clerical works for NP like typing report and letter, writing proposals....

P.S. Don't worry too much la...

P.S.S. Let see..." birth cert of ma.."

1. Ma--

Dad-- unknown
Mom-- unknown
DOB: 29 April 1991
Hour of born: Unknown
Type: Mousie
Height: (hyper sensitive)

*Was abandoned by her parents when she was born. They threw her in the dustbin. And one day, ah ma (rt) found her and raised her up.

Description: A white mousie...was nutrients deprived(malnutrition) when ah ma found her. Now, she still very small size (dunno because of her being deprived of a lot of nutrients [ carbohydrates, protein, fats, Vitamin A, B,C, D, E , K, Iron, Calcium, Magnesium, Potassium] during her infant years)... can be heartless also...(see? she never give gou gou pocket $. She leave gou gou to fend for himself n because of that gou gou became very poor)....second in class la..(considered very gd in studies la) gd listener though....

An Eventful Day

2006-12-07T18:28:00.000+08:00

Sigh...

Today was also an eventful day for me....

In the morning, i pei my mom to eat breakfast. After that we went to buy school books for both me and my bro.

Guess what i saw at Canberra Sec?

The school de bookshop got broken into. The door de glass plane was smashed...But nothing was stolen la...I saw the Police Officers doing first scene investigation...how they dusted for fingerprints n stuffs like that. Later i heard from my brother that their NP room was also broken into...

I was like thinking at that point of time that this might be a sabotaged act...as in there is nth being stolen ma...

Later we went to bugis street...

We buy some stuffs la benconelen street ....

Later we went to bugis street to window shop...

As we were looking at some things...i could feel that got ppl unzipping my waist pouch....luckily i was alert enough....if not, my wallet confirm kena stolen...

Which lead to my next qn...

Do i look very rich? I don't think so leh....

P.S. I know le...buy new bed...now got water bed, spring coiled bed...haha

P.S.S Erm...how can u copy hw...*point finger...u want kena scolding from gou gou is it..or isit that gou gou haven scolded u enough :P

2006-12-06T17:08:00.000+08:00

~ Dead beat....

My mom had taken leave for the week...n so e 3 of us ( my mom, me n my bro) went around jalan jalan...( window shopping la..). We managed to buy a few things though....

Ytd, we went to Tampines...today we went to Queensway n Orchard....

Sigh...3 more weeks n Christmas is coming....(still dont know wat to buy as present...)

P.S. Jas arh dont feel bad...it is el de molar de fault :p e molar not guai ma n so went out of place...

P.S. I long time nvm see my lao po already...so i dont think i will interfere in tis...jia you ba^^

P.S.S Life is always unfair de ma...

2006-12-02T18:48:00.000+08:00

Sigh...

See this:

18 Dec '06 -- AOP training
20 Dec '06-- Open hse performance training
22 Dec '06-- Open hse performance training
27 Dec '06-- Open hse performance training
28 Dec '06-- AOP training
12 Jan '07 -- Annual Opening Parade '07
19 Jan '07 -- Annual General Meeting '07
20 Jan '07 --AFT
*12 Jan '07 -- Open house

See?

Going to have a fun time planning my stuffs liao.

Early in the morning, i caught the encore de Asian Games Opening Ceremony. Throughout the ceremony, my bro n i were like woah! It was simply very stylio la... They begin by showing the history of Qatar ( i think la)... impressive dude....Later part of the show, we saw metallic rocket, metallic test tube, metallic ferris wheel...

Read the following number:
a) Cost of opening ceremony : US$80m.

Need me to say any further?

Really need to thx aaron from ytss who has promised me to help us out in e open hse...thx^^

P.S. el arh...take care...

2006-11-30T13:06:00.000+08:00

Long time no update le....

Been rotting at home for the past few days....There was nothing to do at home not even np de stuffs... So i went to the library to borrow a few books. I have been reading books this few days and so i have been very lazy to use computer (nth 2 update also ma)....

Sigh...

2006-11-23T18:53:00.000+08:00

Hows everybody? 1/4 of the holiday had gone liao...if everyone still ok? Still having fun?

Yeah! Going to have holiday training soon...n i will not need 2 stare at ceiling liao....Going to be more busy liao...but...i am very glad tat e sec 3 had proposed training 2 me ( coz they also say they don't wanna 2 ceiling graze ma)....

Yeah! I have gotten myself another mei liao...haha

2006-11-22T17:41:00.000+08:00

Getting very bored liao, after i have finished part 1 of my np de stuffs...

Eyyer...goong 2, prince hours doesn't look very nice....all of e 4 main actor/actress will not be featured in goong 2....sigh...how can like tat?

2006-11-19T11:26:00.000+08:00

Sigh...

Been a busy man this few days. I felt as if it was just a normal school day, not a holiday...

And the sec 2 has proposed 2 me about holiday training. 2 training per week....

But anyway, it was at least a good news. At least this holiday will not be boring and will be a fun filled de.

Anyway i am going 2 have 2 BBQ this holiday. One of them is a farewell BBQ on this coming Monday (planned by e sec 2s) and another one is e area 2 BBQ (on 19 December). I am especially looking forward to the area 2 BBQ. It is going to be a huge gathering with our np de friends form another unit....

P.S. Very funny thing happened just now... I add a person thinking that e person is my atc de friend. Later then i find out that he is from pasir ris crest. He added me because wei jie (my obss friend) forward me a mail or something like tat and he thought that i am also from pasir ris crest... sc arh...u interested in him? You wanna me 2 play middle man? Feel free ba.

2006-11-14T20:38:00.000+08:00

Hiazz....

NP de mission impossible task....

Today i nearly got a heart attack when mr tee told us that there was only 2 school participating...I mean is like e response is so low la....but later, we realized that there was now at least 10 school taking part. Sigh....

And now, i am waiting for Han Wen to confirm for me the number of sec 1 going to take part in soccer competition (@ siling sec) this Thurs...

P.S. Sigh...seem like we are on the same boat gal...my bro de result is also not very good...he is taking combined sciences (no pure sub)next yr..(realli sensitive,in case he sees it..i am going 2 die soon).So, am i in e same boat as you? Sometimes, i wonder to myself if i had really teach my bro....but i think it is abit late to say it now....(since it is now very hard to change now...) sigh...but i guess u still can make amends now...it is only psle nia...if she can score well in her psle...she can atleast hope to go to normal acadamic...with some encouragement (& hard work 2 la), she can maybe jump 2 express to next year...juz give her ur support ba....i am sure that ur sis will understand one day de....

P.S.S. Sigh, sigh...Jas arh....i know it is now kinda late to say this...but i guess u can change anything now....just wanna tell u to work hard next year...i know u r sad but then...u can change ur saddness into ur motivation.....well, maybe it is a blessing in disguise..u might not know...juz ask ma and she will understand wat i mean le....jia you ba^^

ATC

2006-11-13T17:30:00.000+08:00

Yeah! I have came back in a peice! Lol...

Wa!! Been gone for like 3 days and you guys starting to miss my le....:P

ATC...It was overall a boring camp due to the big rain in sat that cancelled all the activites in the afternoon. But luckily i have a good group mates so i have nth in regrets...It was also by luck that i was chosen as a song leader for the campfire night (due to the horrible campfire during my nco camp)....

Sigh...

I Miss my bed...haha

I seem to be like a walking corpse today..guess i really sleep to much today...got a day to rest (before i start to do my np stuffs). I took out a book to read...the blind man of Seville. It was really a hard book to understand. To be frank, i only understand about 65% of the book. Haha

2006-11-08T18:41:00.000+08:00

"Knock Knock! Is any one home? We are here to deliever the consent form!"

I never knew tat npcc requires cadets to be postman. But today, i and giraffe proved this wrong...We are postman of the day! This is because ppl never recieve consent form for next week de course. To prevent ppl from escaping the course (coz they can say they dont have e consent form ma), we deliever to them on hand. (to think tat every1 of e person we deliever to is very out of place)....

I thought that my two day de break was a timely one in order to prepare my 4 my camp. How wrong man. I nearly got a heartattack today...The trophies is still not done! N we have no much time. Why? We are going 4 camp this fri 2 sun, got course on 16 n 17. (Thats means we have only tml, mon, tue, wed to settle everything)....

P.S. Nearly got 2nd heartattack of the day when i saw ur blogskin. It was nice but i feel tat somemore could be improved. I dont really like e blue de background. I suggest changing it ti baby blue colour (it will look nicer)...besides that, e black border look abit extra....

P.S.S. Nearly got a 3rd heartattack of e day when i read ur entry...i dont know tat so much things happened over e weekend... Firstly, u need to understand that in this world, many kind of ppl existed. Not ani one is going to be like ur di or erm gou gou, ahma or taima to be there 4 un to protect u as well...Some ppl out there can be nasty. Actually, it was good that u got such comments now..coz i think that it was a learning lessons for u...(raises ur awareness too). Btw, these are just inmature de comments...there is no need to fret about it la...^^

P.S.S.S. Regarding the sun thingy, my mom told me tat she saw u..n tat she said tat u were trying to play hide n seek with her..n my mom was like asking mi how come u dont wanna come up....

Going to watch goong liao...

2006-11-06T18:47:00.000+08:00

I have just finished reading a book about Tourette's syndrome...At first, i thought that it was going to be a boring de book. But after reading, it gave me alot of insides to Tourette's syndrome as well as a lot of info about how e brain work...Actually from what i said, you must be thinking that i am reading a boring de science journal right?

Nope, it was actually about this poor guy, Paul, who despite of an IQ of 150 was unemployed due to his condition. On top of that, his ex-wife, Janet, tried to take away the custody of their son Mark. His sis, Kay introduced a job for him: that is to restore his aunty de hse which look as if some person had sabotaged it...Mark dives deeper into his own family de history.....Quickening eventsd lead him deeper into his family de past and as Paul faces the darker aspects of his own nature, he need to brave e possibility tat in saving those he loes, he might well destory himself...

The book name is Skull Session, by Daniel Hecht...

I am now trying to enjoy my 3 days..which iniatally was delicated to sc camp...

P.S. Hiazz..wat u said in ur bloggie made me a bit jealous..coz it was like so long tat i have met my old pri sch de frenz....even if we do meet, there is already a canal between us...(Even one of my closest frenz that i have in my pri sch)I only rmb tat i attended a bbq of my old p6 de class...wat was meant 2 be a fun outing was marred by the rain...in e end we couldnt bbq anything...luckily, the bbq pit was near a htb blocks. We took all e stuffs up to one of my frenz de hse and we fried everything up....

P.S.S I am not de person who came up with that theory... At first, i did that 4 fun nia..but in the end, i realize tat it could also cheer u up^^....

P.S.S.S ahma arh...dont think too much about ur thurs de paper...juz do ur best ok? I am sure that u can do very well 4 ur old levels....

>>Going to watch goong liao...

>>Alfred. Cute?

4 Nov

2006-11-04T17:04:00.000+08:00

Hoildays had started....

But i guess that i cannot slack this hoilday liao...even giraffe also agreed with me....

I have been busy with np de stuffs this few days...All thx to our QM who had decided to do a disappearing act...we need to do the stock check all by our self...

In the end, we got ourself so tired that at e end of the day we simply collapsed in e sofa....

After today de meeting, we found out that we have even more things to do in the hoilday...e.g. open hse de proposal, unit de year plan...(n e list goes on/..)

I am not going to enjoy my hoildays...

P.S. Ma, can buy ur time? You seem 2 be so free leh that u spent e day ceiling grazing...

~ Leadership comes with responsibility~

31/10/06

2006-10-31T20:47:00.000+08:00

Been given a scare just now..thought that my computer broke down again...

Yesterday, i finished my o lvl chinese liao...like what randy had said, the paper was simply unexpected. I even thought that my hmt paper was easier leh! And my mom was like saying that it was due to me getting used to hmt de paper n standard...

I was lucky that i didnt chose to go to a very gd sch like catholics high after hearing what my cousin(sec 2 nia) had said. Well, for the final year, his average was 72. Guess what he got for his level position...60 plus out of 400 students. Based on my calculations, the first in level de must have scored at least 80 plus marks...my godness! Besides that, they must scored at least 75% in order to study triple sciences next year. I was like speechless when i hear that la...

Sigh...wonder how much i need to study to reach that kind of standard...

Nonetheless...it is fun time now^^

29 October

2006-10-29T18:16:00.000+08:00

Tormorrow is my o levels mt liao...

Been trying to revise last minute, though some say that there was actually nothing to study for. Which i some how agreed, because language is supposed to be living one and not an examination subject. Therefore your foundation needs to be good. I remembered that mdm xie used to tell us that the words are actually a small founding stone that are used to build buildings etc. I am glad that i had a strong foundation (and intrest in mt) . This was of course due to my primary sch teacher who nurtured me. Mdm Lin, Mr Liu and Mrs Deng. Without them, my mt standard will not be what i am now...thx ba...I will always rmb u de...

Mdm Xie also told me before the key to improving ur essay. The things is that, since the marker is going to mark thousands of essay, your essay needs to be unique. The ideas that you presented in the essay needs to be something that got some depth and some difference from others. She also pointed out that, as compared to the chinese student, our essay lacked some standard and there is alot of room for improvement.

I will always remember all this things that my pri sch teacher as well as mdm xie had told mi over the years and will bring them to the examination hall tml....

I hope that i will not disappoint those who have always believed in mi...esp mdm xie and mdm lin....

Gd luck to all taking chi exam tml...

Tired...

28 October

2006-10-28T19:25:00.000+08:00

I just came back from all my np stuffs....

Went out of my home at 6.30 a.m. and returned at 5.30p.m. This is simply marvelous...

I have learnt my lesson today: Communication. Today de event went wrong (ncos not knowing their stuffs till the last minute) was because of communication. We already called them to come for meeting and few of them turned up (nid 2 say e names?)

Hiaz...we need to improve.....But with only 4 ppl as the core who did most of the work, what are we supposed to do? The unit is dipping, but with only 5 ppl ard, what u wanna us to do? The CIs have expressed their disappointment to us liao. I guess we need come down one day to really talk about it and e solutions. Leadership comes with responsibility...

But as for now, i guess we really need to focus on National Hertiage Trail '06. A major event...And all hope is on us to deliever...

I am also going to be more busy...how i wish i can be like ma...too bored until got realli nth 2 do...

P.S. Yoh arh..the latest entry that you wrote almost broke me down...plus the background music...It was simply: touching....a brother trying to protect his sis from getting hurt...

27/10/06

2006-10-27T18:38:00.000+08:00

Whee, last day of school...

I took my result slips back...for the first time i had been in ai, i am given an excellent for conduct, and for the first time in ai, a teacher (miss illysa) made a spelling mistake(embarrasing la)...in her remarks. She spelt ramarkable instead of remarkable. (All thanks to mi lao po who spotted it^^)

Yeah...later, i saw mrs foo. She, of course, was very curious about my overall grade. When i told her that it was a b3 (an huge relief for mi), she was disaappointed..but nonetheless, she encouraged mi to read boring articles (such as Time Magazine, Reader Digest...) to improve my english.

P.S. Congrats to ma who made it 2 the 2nd in class and 4th in level. Well done!I am so proud of you^^...Actually, it was no surpise that you managed to get 2nd, because of your consistent hard work...I am so glad that this time round, you will join mi on stage for your top in combined humanties...and course your $500 (which is supposing your 1st year getting..) However, pls continue to work harder for u o lvls...

P.S.S Who said that i have forgetten you...my dear ahma...well, i wont forget the time that we spent (though very few la..but must treasure ma)...gonna to miss you when you will not be around next year...continue to do your hard work aand i believe that you can reach out for the stars for u o lvls...jia you^^

26/10/06

2006-10-26T21:04:00.000+08:00

So fast, an year ended..(not really la, but the sch going days are over 4 this year)...

This year, i got really a lot of fine memories, more good ones than bad ones....thx to those who made my year...my 2 mei, my ma, ahma and taima, my lao po, my "uncle"(yoh la)...this year there is alot of things happening and i become more busy..but aleast got ppl 2 pei me..haha!

Ma..no matter where u hide, my nu tou ma mian still can find u de..^^

Btw, do u know why my cough worsen? Because ma lol..she nvm give mi $ see doctor, somemore let mi eat shit all day long....

24/10/06

2006-10-24T17:56:00.000+08:00

ahhh!!!

i tink i am dying soon.

u see? i got this terrible cough that cant seem to stop. And yesterday i had a runny nose...T.T maybe soon enough ma can get to eat her doggie meat.

Yay! I am so glad that you escaped from the volleyball match, but i am sure that you are not going to get so lucky on thurs...(evil grins...)

*sob sob i am not going to enjoy my holiday as much as you do...

I am definately going crazy over this song (Stay) n perharps love...

*Dont know that ma was much more evil than mi...

Hari Raya Puasa

2006-10-23T19:02:00.000+08:00

Happy Hari Raya Puasa to all^^

Hari Raya Puasa always mean somethings to mi. My next door de neighbour will bring food over to let us share their joyous feeling. In return, we will bring some biscuits, and snacks over. To me, it marks a strong tie of racial harmony. Is the racial harmony only practiced during hari raya? Nope. The two neighbour practices it every day. We will greet each other when we see them in the morning. My neighbour, who needs to go out but still worrying about her son as he has no door to enter when he returns, will entrusts her house keys to us (without a fear). My neighbour too, passes mi the10 yrs series as her son does not need it liao. During Chinese New Year, we will treat her with biscuits n snacks ( she cant eat what we cook la), and in return, we will get ang bao.

The 21 July 1964 showed to us the danger of racial politics. As said in the pledge:

The Pledge
We the citizen of Singapore,
pledge ourself as one united people,
regardless of race, language or religion,
to build a democratic society
based on justice and equality
so as to achieve happiness, prosperity and
progress for the nation

This is only a food for thought nia^^

P.S. I wanna eat mousie meat! Hmm lets think how to cook mouse meat...

10 Different way to cook (and eating) mousie meat:

Steam it.The best way to eat the meat as the juices will remain!
Roast it. Before roasting, stuff some herbs (or things like tat) in the stomach and roast in with red sauces
Mince it. Make it into meat ball!
Cook soup using mouse de bones la
Bruise it. Bruise it with tao kau, (pig) intestines, eggs tao pou...
Pan fry it. First, you will slice it into pieces. Then, using some ginger, fry it.
BBQ! Sprinkle some honey and lemon on the meat before bbq(ing) it.
Use it as a filling for kou rou bao. Taking some of the bruised de mouise meat, put it, together with lettuce, bao and eat!
Fried it. Preheat the oil. Put the mousie meat and fry till golden colour.
Claypot mouise meat! Use mouise de shoulder joint de meat and stew it!

Hmm..i can already smell the nice nice de smell...

(copyrighted hoh^^)

Happy holiday to everyone! Go and watch goong liao...

Changed My Blogskin

2006-10-22T19:45:00.000+08:00

Changed my blogskin and with help from my bro

Hows it? Give mi comments ba...

I don't know whether i did it on impluse on what...but maybe i am too bored or wat..i went 2 buy 2 books from popular leh! And therefore, i spent my weekend reading da vinci...(n i have finished reading le...^^) . erm, though i read e whole bk liao but i have only managed 2 understand n digest 75% of the book...which probably means that i have 2 reread e whole book again nexttime.

The next book which i have brought is e kite runner..but i have read yet...

See this ba:

Does your name begins with: J

You are blessed with a great deal of physical energy. When used for a good cause there is nothing to stop you, except maybe that they aren't always used for the good. (you could dance all night.) You respond to the thrill of the chase and the challenge of the mating game.You can carry on great romances in your head. At heart you are a roamer and need to set out on your out on your own every so often. You will carry on long- distance relationships with ease. You are idealistic and need to believe in love. You have a need to be nurtured deep within.

Jas arh, u should read this...

Me being idealistic? Hmm...

17/10/06

2006-10-18T18:45:00.000+08:00

Exam's are over. i am not going to reveal my results here ( lest i get a beating frm someone)...

Overall, i will say that i have done reasonably well, however there are still room for improvements. Take my english for example...i definately need to polish it in time before my o lvls...as well as my maths and my ss. As for now, i simply had no solutions to that....(take my time la)....

Subjects that i have improved:

A Maths
Phyiscs (partially due to the topics tested. I dont really enjoyed kinematics and stuffs like that)
Geography (well if u count that as a separate subject)
Chemistry ( something that i need to work harder...titration la!)

Subjects that i need to buck up:

Social Studies ( I need to rethink about my time management...Miracles aren't going to last long....)
English ( This SA2 made me realised that i have still a long way to go. I definately need to work on my english)
Biology ( Something that i need to rethink about....)

Subjects that i have maintained:

HMT (Though i have maintained, but i feel that more could be done on the comprehension part....something which i could have done better)
E Maths ( Again i need to work on it as well. In O levels there is no such thing as overall average. I am definately not wanting to lose marks because of carelessness)

Do i still need to say anything more?

Arrgh, i almost cant stand pinky de behaivour. I must say that miss tow made a terrible mistake in praising him. Do you know why? He went boasting about that in front of everybody he knew. He saw fei ge ( ppl just nearly failed bio rite) he go and hao lian about how marvelous his essay was. He saw (sim) ying' ( he seem to develop it into a habit) and again start to hao lian about how good his essay was...

Speechless man...

P.S. I thought i was a comp chi u know....but today i knew that some1 just took over my position as a comp chi...

15/10/06

2006-10-15T16:11:00.000+08:00

Time : 4.06 p.m

The haze seem to get worse. Everybody must take care, esp. sc and my mei who have fallen sick. sc arh, since ur os are coming, get well soon hoh.

Ytd, i went out to be on a np de mission: recee trip for Mount Faber and National Hertiage Trail. (N got myself so tired after that). For the 1st time, i had read the map wrongly le! I intrepreted the wrong info and led everybody to walk a very long way...so sorri guys =) But no one seems to blame mi on tat (tats wat i call team spirit ma..one die everybody die). But the scenary at the Mount Faber is so damm nice. Though got some haze, but the scenary is still very nice (at bit like genting the kind) Then, from where we are, we can see the Merlion! Haha..maybe next time i show u e pics^^

Actually, after the Mount Faber hike, we are already half died liao. Zhi jun spoke of wanting me to postpone the recee for National Trail. But, i think heaven is not on our side. The charted bus that we are taking, fetched us to Outram MRT station (iniatially the bus aunty said that we will not be bypassing any mrt station ma). The most amazing thing was: we witnessed how the haze become more serious as each hr passed. From the not so hazy to become like genting....

P.S. ( From the bottom of my heart) I am sorry. Really sorry this time. Maybe it is due to my selfish thinking, or it is maybe due to me having too high hopes on you. I know that i am a failure in this issue and i have simply not handed it well enough. To think of it, from the start of the examination, i knew tat my chance of topping amaths is simply too impossible. I am just not up to it and also i have a knack of carelessness during examination ( just look at how mr ong scolded me) . When i know that you have topped amaths, i think tat i have placed all my hopes on you and hoped that you really passed your amaths with flying colour. Maybe i should not phrased it in a such a manner that you thought of my wrong intention or maybe i shouldn't have said it at all, that caused all this (mess). This is really a time for me to reflect with myself.....(mian bi si guo....).

To think of it, i think i myself would freak out also if someone keep saying that he (she) wanna beat me. I think that (seriously) i have used the wrong method this time. Maybe you are right, its time that we should talk (about it)....

Once again, I am sorry.....

14/10/06

2006-10-13T14:07:00.000+08:00

Time check : 1.16 p.m.

Mood: Very bad. Having a headache now....Later still need to go down for meeting..hiazz why am i so ill fated?

Well, after reading ma de blog, it's now my turn to get bu shuang. Why?

An OBS Quote: " The closer the man gets to the top, the more the man finds that there is no top."

I ask u...whats' the defination of an examination? A medium where you can compete to see who is the smartest or what? If u have this kind of metality, u are wrong. Do you think i cared so much about winning? If i cared so much about winning others, would i even bother to help u in ur chem and geo? (F.Y.I I told ur di about the site where i got my geo stuff.). Would i even have helped Mak (or Fiona)?(FYI Mak called me a number of times, each call lasting half an hour plus. But do i reject her whenever she called? I still patiently reply her qn even though it means that i have lesser time to revise) Would i even have attended np related stuff 1 week before the exam? ( F.Y.I I have a meeting on sat to dicuss about national hertiage trail).If i cared so much about winning others, i think i would already have broken down when i couldnt finish my geo and ss. If I cared so much about winning, I would have already go kpo about whose having the highest mark. Think about it.

To me, an examination is NOT a place to complete. I am not like Krystal pls, if u think that i am like her. She had a strong completing mentality.

To me, i feel that examination is the medium where u gauge how much u have learnt for the year. Think about it carefully. I dont break down when i didnt finish my ss paper. Why? Coz i know that i have done my best for my ss. Do i break down when i nearly flunked my emaths class test? Do i break down when mr ong scolded moi. Why? Coz i know that i have alreadi put in my best effort. There is no need to feel sad.

I am just upset that ma said me to kind of person. Cannot lose the kind of mentailty. My gd intention of pushing her to score for her next amaths paper had been wrongly intrepreted. Do u think that i mean whatever i said? I just wanna use ji jiang fa to push u further.Why? Coz i see in u. I believe that u can perform. I believe that u can do far better than u can do now. If u think, i am actually helping u another sense: I am helping to push ur average up (coz u seem to be worrying for some of ur paper). Do you think that i stand to benefit in this way. Nah. U must be thinking that i am psycho, crazy and even insane already.

Seriously i am also totally speechless when i read ur blog. Seriously, i feel like breaking down. I just know that my effort had been wasted. If u say that to me 3 yrs ago, i might have agreed. As time passed, and as i grow older, i feel that it is sometime useless to compete. (childish also). Why do u even need to compete? U will feel more tired...I am already mentally exhausted and i dont wanna u to take the same path as me. U are just affected what huiting said and u feel that u have alot of pressure. Why even need to think that krsytal scored 99 for amaths? If i are like what u say, i must be feeling moody and sad liao wat. I lost 20 plus marks (due to careless) in my a maths sa1 and just scored 55 nia. Then what about my recent amaths result? I scored 75 nia u know...To tell u the truth, i definately are not doing my best for my subjects in e recent ca and can to be said as a dip in form. But do i feel sad about it?Nope... I continue to do what i think is gd for me and did not let this affect me....

Disappoined and dejected....

(n Still having a headache...)

Exam End!!

2006-10-12T16:00:00.000+08:00

YAY! eXam eNded!

Let mi list down some memorable moment :
( From finest to worse)

1) I scored 73 for my A Maths Paper 1. This is the first time tat i have scored such high marks for amaths. (also due to the fact that i am always careless in my work. I have learnt that the hardest possible way :my sa1 de amaths paper 1 was shit. I lost marks because i am careless, not because i dont know how 2 do. 20+ marks gone! Imagine!)

2) My initial fear of a hard hard de phyiscs paper ( due to the 05 paper la)was gone...i almost lose sleep because of that. Before the paper, i and sabby asked miss illysa qn (from 05 paper)...she took ages to ans it (till now i dont even know hw 2 do)...It is a no wonder tat i will feel worse la...In the end, the paper was ok, even easier tat e mid year paper.

3) Bio paper. I asked miss tow liao, and she said that i am 1 of the better ones la...though erm 10 person failed bio la.

4) I had to endure a gastric pain while doing my amaths paper 2. Therefore, pls dont have high expectation for my add maths paper(a1 still ok, but i am not confident of scoring very high marks). This is because of the pain that i am feeling, i slowed down my writing process and in e end i nearly didnt finished my paper. (I am feeling ok nw..after i ate something).

5) My english paper was 1 of my least confident subject now...as you know, english is a subject tat u cant fail la. The comprehension was not only dry but something tat i cant relate to. ( my eng standard was still ok, but this kind of paper definately make me loss confident). However, as i criss cross my ans with other people, i felt slightly better la...(Really hope not to disappoint mrs foo. On her last lesson with us, she walked past me and said tat she expect an a1 from mi)but i know i am not realli that confident la.

6) My social studies paper was abit like shit la coz i cant finish a 6 marks qn. Mr Zee (i think he has high expectation for mi) was quite sad (though he didnt say, but i infered from his tone) when he know tat i didnt finish my ss paper. He was like saying: " Aiya, Jonathan, how come like tat..."He only feel slightly better when i told him tat i chose to do e 2 7 marks qn la (instead of the 6 marks 1) when i dont have enough time.

7) I got a scolding from mr ong la. Apparently i made some careless mistake in my paper and he was definatly not happy about it la. He scolded me and my "feel" about it was not really gd...

So ma arh, who is feeling more pressure? mrs Foo wanna me to score a1, mr ong, mr zee, mr faizal, mdm xie (though she didnt teach my class liao), mr zhang (though to a small extent) all have high expectation for mi, esp mr ong. He was like not happy when i couldnt score as much tat i could possibly have for my sa1 paper and now i think i have disappointed him yet again. Seriously, i dont know how much teacher i am going to disppoint this time.

Although the exam had ended, but i am definately not one of the happy soul around.

For this exam, i can only say that my pressure had reached to like xiao level...If u asked mi, i can only say tat i had e most amt of pressure this time as compared to my last 2 year...with Yiling and ma constantly giving mi lots of pressure. Well, i only got top because my total average was gd and not tat i am good in any subject. My lowest point was tat i scored only 13 marks for my kinematics class test. Seriously i am not realli happy with tat. Seriously, i can tell u tat i am sometime quite annoyed when i see ma, pinky, yoh still taking so easy about e exam when it was only like 1 week away.

Esp during one of last mr zee class. Rmb tat he shouted at alvin e incident? Well, do you know tat he was trying to teach something tat was important? Nonetheless, pinky, ma n yoh chit chat in one corner; darrel, weiyang in another corner; shujing, fiona n co in another...well think la...u guys dont even respect him as a teacher....it is no wonder tat he will shout at alvin la..seriously i think tat alvin had done nth wrong and just tat he was at the wrong time and place. I tell u, e only person who cared about it arh was ronald, joscelin, ch sabby and i la...N he was like trying to explain things to us la..i can sense his frustration as he tries to explain amit e din la. When he had reached his boiling point, he shouted at alvin...

The pressure just escalated when i find tat i have quite a lot of physics qn (mainly from 05 paper) tat i dont know how to do .The situation wasnt helped all thx to miss illysa who take ages to ans it la.. Seriously, i pray and hope tat she wouldnt be our physics teacher next year. At least miss chua was better than her..she would atleast ans my qn or even if she dont know she will help mi find out (not like tat illysa). Sometimes i was wondering too, with this kind of attitude, how could gg gets such gd results? N i hear tat she created quite a furore with e new committee...

So ma, i seriously dont think tat u r under any stress la...And tat was mainly the reason behind me giving u constant pressure when i know tat u scored 78 for amaths. Actually i didnt mean what i say de... i just only wanna test how u handle stress la...To my disappointment, i dont think u have handle it well la..to such an extent tat u r going to collapse under pressure (coz u was like wanting to give up in e end la). N of course i knew tat u r not going take it liao la, and thus i decided to stop my "experiment".

N to think tat i have spent like 2 hrs typing this entry. Lol! (Actually also because i got no 1 to rant to...all go out n celebrate liao...e hse empty empty de leh...)

A Reply to Yoh's blog

2006-09-21T21:27:00.000+08:00

Very lag!!! I dont know what happened, but my whole computer was lagging when i was navigating ur blog...(It didnt happened when i visited my blog or ma de blog)...

Hiazz..so i shall "erm" reply to ur blog...

On XJ de behaviour

I sat with him for 2 years and i was the one (besides yoh) to know how well he has changed.

Sec 1 -- XJ de behaviour was overall gd. He did his hw diligently, when i had some maths qn 2 ask him, he will patiently see thru my workings and show me e way... I dont rmb if he had slept in class (even if have, also very few that i cant rmb). He was a responsible guy and was partly e reason for my improvements in maths....

Sec 2-- XJ de behaivour falls. My image of him declines. This partial due to his addiction to maple. He slacken his efforts in studies. He began not doing his hw and stuffs like tat. If u happened 2 pass by 2e1 de class room, u will see 1 table with a big stack of books. Pinky will be buried behind his books. I never wonder how he managed to study with tat pile of books on his desk. The image i had for him declined further when he fanned the fire of the rumor...well i DIDNT at tat point of time HATE him. I still treat him as my friend, n i did a project with him and ur di....(p.s. we didnt quarrel tat much..we still can chat on e phone 4 2hrs)

Sec 3--XJ de behaviour continues to fall...Sleeping in class la, not doing his hws la (using reasons like "so long as i can pass my add maths with flying colours can liao" or " i didnt have e time 2 do hw la") were unheard of if u compared him with his sec 1 de behaivour. He keep using boring as a reason in order 2 change his seats. He always tried to pick a quarrel with me la (not seen previously). For me, i hate his attitude but i dont hate him...Even diyana also cant stand his attitude. She reflected to me once tat he had big ego.

As for now, i think tat it was inapporiate 4 me 2 dicuss e topics further (even though i wanted 2 say out my view on his change)... but i am afraid tat it might hurt alot of parties...

On Me

Well, as for me, i think i am alrite and fine nw...thx for all the concern tat u have shown me over e weeks^^....

P.S. Erm ma arh...u realli dont know zhiyu de family well..let me give a brief summary. zhiyu belongs 2 e lim family, started out in 2004 when they discovered that they have 5 lims in e class. They formed a family...they are zhiyu, siling, jiahui, (e rest i 4get liao) . Their family gets bigger... If u managed to trace, u will find tat taima is jia hui de sis...so if u wanna ur bride price, ask from taima...

P.S.S Well, i dont think i will wait 4 u....i reliaze tat there wasnt much time left and i decided 2 chiong whenever i can....

17/9/06

2006-09-17T13:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, my blood nearly boiled...

For those who dont know, i was the examiner for the sec 1 promotion test...All the things that we say on wed (we had a extra lesson 4 them) wasnt done. The standard of the drill , using 1 word 2 say, horrible... i and zhi jun (another examiner) had a nice time marking the drills (coupled with e rain also)...To be frank, it was because i and zhi jun closed 1 eye, that they are able 2 pass their test. Han Wen (Zhi Jun de brother) disappointed me alot. Well, when you have a chairman as a sister, naturally you will have higher standard for her brother. Sorri, not even that he didnt do that, he fared even worse than e 3 Indian gals...

In summary: They have very "good memory". They couldnt even remember things that we said on wed...

Then after that they challenged us (zhi jun n i) in changing. In the end they failed do that....(let down)

For campcraft, i dont know how many times must tell them 2 shut up their mouth leh...they simply dont understand eng. Give them second chance (coz they r suppose 2 tell 7 knots in 1 min) by asking them 2 tie a random knot i say, they dont want. So i failed 2 person..wasnt a surpise also. I knew that my fiona mei was disappointed...she wrote something like i am disppointed n i am a failure on e white board...(as she said la)...For hurricane lamp still ok, except an incident that marred my heart. The N Land ppl simply had no brain de..."toot" i would say. You know y? An Alpha cadet jumped over a hurricane lamp while one of my cadet were lighting it up. What u think this is? Obstacles course? Do you know that it is super dangerous? What if his leg hits e lamp and all the glass shards flew? What if the kersone spilt on the floor while e cadet is lighting up? Cant u just walk (or run) another side? "toot" la...

In summary: They have no discipline. It was a letdown after so much hardwork we put in.

After that, the FA issue, a storm in a teacup...pharhiban said that he gt do things and mei feel tat she has been unrightly treated... 1 of them look like a scimpering cat (parthiban la)..n the other look like she wanna cry liao....So as a vice chair (it is my duty also) i decided 2 erm check things out la...well apparently this time i was not helping phathiban liao...coz i felt that tis time my mei was right la...n after that gt some questioning (not so serious la..talk talk onli)from pei yu mdm...n i tell her watever i know...she doesnt really looked quite happy...

Later, i heard from my mei tat actually pei yu mdm was also suspicous whether parthiban got do his stuff as a FA. n 2 prevent biasness, she decided 2 get info from me...hiazz...

Actually i didnt knew tat sec 3 squad had so much problems....I think tat my mei also had alot of wei qu la...from wat i hear from her just now...some1 had said tat e person had zhi jun as a kao shan, n therefore he/she doesnt need 2 be fearful of watever ppl. Aiya this kind of things cant be said in a few sentences de...

In summary: I got 2 worry e sec 1, sec 2 n sec 3...each of them needs immediate attention...

P.S. Yay (ma must be happi ^^) coz i long time nvm leave message 4 her liao... reformmatting ur comp is definately a heartbreak de...i also reformat my comp recently. I tell u e kind of feeling is not gd...all my precious music files were gone in a second....maybe u can try doing this...be4 u send ur comp 2 reformat, u can try 2 save (transfer) ur important doc in a portable harddisk....btw gd luck 4 ur exam..jia you ^^

10/9/06

2006-09-10T16:48:00.000+08:00

AHHHH!!

3 weeks 2 examination...looking at my planner 4 revision, it is tight, awfully tight...

And y i am still here?

Good question..i realise tat my procrastinating skills are getting better (all thx 2 some1...) and later i am going out...

I must ban myself from using the computer from now..if not i will be in a crisis..worse still, i have been undone by myself....

3 weeks...hw am i going to survive? Esp on weekends, i have planned 2 revise 4 subjects ( 1 subject 4 2 hrs)....I must suceed this time..no more carelessness this time...i must!

Jia you 2 everybody
(This is most likely my last post be4 e exam starts...)

See ya everybody on 13/10/06..^^

7/9/06

2006-09-07T12:17:00.000+08:00

Now i can rant watever i like...

Time check: 12.33 p.m.

Weather: Sunny

Yea..iniatally i have a fear of going today...i dont wanna be a light bulb or a piece of wall again..n it is not nice to be 1...but since ma n her di insists on....

Man, i am tired (something which ma and her di wouldnot understand)....physically and mentally tired...(my mom would agree with mi)...maybe i should have follow what gomez had said..learning 2 say "no" and let go...but on the other hand, letting go would not be mi...(rmb, my disc de analysis say that i am a task orientated de person)...ppl seems to think tat i am a superman, a pro in watever thing...

take an example e chem project...i am sure that pinky and ma know e standard of wat i want de (as 4 zhi yu..i darent say)...i even take lengths to tell ma e format 4 referances..did she even take note? no...if she takes note of that, it would most probably save me a lot of energy (n ma de di de energy) and time as well...e person tat make mi most blood boil is pinky...he went with us to bio tech..he knows e standard of doing a report as well as a referances...n yet what he gave mi? A shitty piece of work that i made no tail or head with... If all of them did their work well (like ma de di who knows his stuff^^) did we even need 2 meet up on wednesday de afternoon? I sure tat 1 meeting on tues is enough...(shld say more than enough)...and i can save this precious time of mine to do my other work (np de proposal)...

Yea i could have tell ppl tat it is not that they dont have time but rather that they dont know hw 2 manage their time. But hw u expect mi 2 apply that 2 my life? I seem 2 have endless task 2 do and i haven yet started on my revision (which i tell myself tat i must start my revision this holiday)...whenever i finished 1 task, another will sure come ( i am not like gg de secretary who seems 2 be enjoying her holiday)...

Mentally, yes, i am tired... if u ask mi whether i am more tired last year or nw..i would say nw... Why? At least last year, i can sleep tight, no worries or nth 2 bother mi....

Hiazz...

5/9/06

2006-09-05T19:00:00.000+08:00

Hiazz..hw bad can my day gets?....

So...today they went to my hse 2 do chem de project. In the end, i ended up being a super megawatt de light bulb..this kind of feeling is not very great (as i have been left out yet AGAIN...)..if u ask my jasmine mei , she would probably agree with mi (2 hands up also)!

Then, i went 2 paragon...saw e road tat lead 2 loneliness...after my dental, my inner soul seemed to urge mi 2 take a walk down the road..(from orchard 2 city square de road...)...munching a curry puff, i decided 2 follow where my heart wanna go...as i walk, e feeling tat i felt last fri came back once again...it couldnt be helped by the fact that i myself had been feeling blue...

Feeling blue....

4/9/06

2006-09-04T18:34:00.000+08:00

Whew! Another day had just passed

With me having neverday tasks 2 do...hw can i have e time 4 my revision...hmm lets see what i have on hand: National Heritage Trail 06 n Unit Hike 2 take care of...(+ my hws..) How miserable can my holiday gets...

As 4 tml * drum roll....

What 2 expect? I have kindly pushed my dental appointment 2 3.45 p.m. as i know u guys de type.^^ As such (as well as my mom de kind gesture), she has kindly sponser u guys q bread de bread ( i know ma likes^^) n drinks (i think is fruit juice la), without needing 2 feel hungry. So, u guys can eat while we are doing the project. (My bro is now thinking that my mom is treating u guys as a VIP)....It also seem to me that u r having a house visit rather than chem project de meeting...lol...

P.S. Ma, i will try my very best 2 4get wat had happened...as an old saying: "let bygones be bygones"...i will also want to have another close friend rather than having an enemy. I will promised on my part (as i have alreadi shown in welcoming u guys 2 my hse) that i will try 2 let things return as normal...but u must also rmb wat u have said 2 mi....friends forever? *Hook finger.....

Hiazz

3/9/06

2006-09-03T21:43:00.000+08:00

( EC 17 de pics . Thx to all who made my OBS a fun 1^^n to all who help mi in 1 way or another..thx...)

Lol...another day had just passed...

Ma...there is no nid 2 say sorri 2 mi so many times de...e damage had alreadi been inflicted n there is no way tat i can reverse this pain that i feel...as 4 now, i shall accept ur sorries.... (btw rmb wat u have promised mi...i hate ppl who promised me and yet didnot fulfill what they have promised...)

What i need is ppl who can empathy me and not sympathy me...Isnt that easy?

Hiazz....

Teacher's Day

2006-09-02T18:56:00.000+08:00

Feeling blue....

Yup, yesterday was teacher's day and we "pei" miss tow 4 e whole day....

We gathered at yishun mrt station...funny enough, the always chao late de ma is so early today...soon, the others arrived and we set of to paragon....

be4 meeting miss tow...we went to taka 2 buy a gift for miss tow...after much debating, we finally settled on a mug...( some ppl still owe me $$..better owed up hoh)...

For the whole day, we went to catch a moive, eat saeke sushi, window shopping from orchard to marina square to seeing e merlion....

Yup, i do have a fun n enjoyable time yesterday, but something spoilt my mood...

well, ytd u all might have realized tat during the "trek" from orchard to city square, i was always ahead or behind the pack, maintaining my silence throughout. At 1 point of time i was even complaining of a gastric pain, till that u all think tat my action was due the above reason. u guys have asked mi the reason of my action, but i think i have avoided to ans the qn straight in the face...

so why?

Leading the way and having gastric pain are glorified reasons...they are NOT the main cause of me maintaining my silence or walking ahead/behind the pack...It was all due a simple and yet devasting reason : I felt outcasted... When edwin ask mi 2 shut my mouth for at least 5 min, i feel so much relieved...edwin had just found mi a perfect reason for not talking...for the whole day, u guys were like talking about japanese animation and of course music...both of which i have little interest in.... of course, i tried 2 change e topic alittle (tat sometimes explain my loud voice), but in the end it will always return back to the same topic...in the end i have learn to shut up, and let u guys enjoy urself...i was like thinking..why do i need 2 be a wet blanket?Spoilting all ur fun...nah, i felt that i can't do this..n of course naturally the outcasted feeling just came strongly...in the end, u might have observed this, or u might even not have, i prefer to stay with susan or with miss tow nearing the end of the trip.

Hiazz...

(Pls dont spread this story ard without my permission)
well, been doing alot of thinking when i came home...to be frank, i had nth in common with ma besides talking about sc, taima n jas n of course school work....Do i watch jap animation? Nah.... Do i a passion for music like wat ma has? Nah..passion i darent say, but appreciation to music is to a certain extent... Do i even have a hp? Nah... (dont even dare to think of that)

Ma has tried to asked mi about the reason of results making a matter to mi...Had i told her straight in the face my side of my story? Nah...i feel that having to worry sc is too much 4 her...i dont wanna add another onto her fragile shoulder...but as i always say 2 jas or ma, bottling it in urself is not gd...i need an outlet, n to mi, my blog is my outlet....

I grew up in a rather average family...my dad, who did not have much education, had 5 mouths to feed...Those days, qualifications are important...my dad, not having much education, had not choice but to settle 4 a $1000+ job...imagine a $1000+ income feeding 5 mouths and having at least 2 (mi n my bro) kids tat r near schooling. Life was hard then. My dad had to scimp and save every penny that he had...he used to tell mi about he bringing his roti ( frm home) as lunch, while his other colleague enjoyed their lunch outside....Do i ,in the point of time, dared to think about my future? My future being able to play many musical pieces or even composing music or as a big doctor? My dad worked hard to provide me an education, which he realized tat as important. He, of course, dont want us to work the path which he had trodded...

At that point of time, i was still young ma...i didnt really think much...i continued to be the same old me...at that point of time, i didnt really ranked studying as my prime objectives...of course, my result tend 2 rise and fall abit...my mom, worrying about my studies, decided to went to work as well, in order to have a bit of leeway in the hse de $$, as well as to provide mi $$ for my tuition fees...did i realli think tat as an importance? Nah, i dot really think so...Till i saw my PSLE de results..though my mom didnt really say anithing or scolding me...but deep inside, i knew tat i had disappointed my mom alot....

So, i went to ai...with no friends from jing shan pri...suit me as well, as i am thinking...this is gonna to be a fresh start 4 mi i thought....well 4 e 1st three months, i had no (or rather few) friends..u ask pinky or ur di..they would agree tat i am damm quiet those days...i begin to make a few friends, but they r frenz that r rather superficial....i begin to chose a path, driven purely by my academic pursuits, but it was a path to loneliness and coldness at the summit. But had i tell myself to turn back when i begin 2 lose my friend one by one? No..i decided 2 continue on...as i begin my sec 2, i think i am rather a empty shell without any true friends de person, i think that were rather huge emo' de hole tat needs to fill in...n tats y i nearly fall into e trap set by pinky n friends...tat incident made mi woke up from my slumber...sec 3 yr was no where better, till i meet ma n her friends...ma soon becum my pillar of my support, my pillar tat i will look to for encouragements.....

Had u ask mi why did i own a hp? Who in the world dont want to have such things? I dare to dream, but i dont dare to ask 4 it...i dont wanna add burden to my dad n mum...days nowadays (when we moved to sembawang e time) was still ok, we werent tat poor, but neither are we tat rich...my mom realized tat it will be soon very hard 2 satisfy both me n my bro de wants... so i nw had a internet connection...but do i dare to ask for a higher speed de internet speed? Nah.. i nw had a computer...but do i dare to ask my mom to buy another new de computersince it was rather old? Nah... i nw had a tv...but do i dare to ask for a cable de tv?Nah..i dont dare to, as i know tat evry penny tat my dad n mom earned was bloodshed.

So as 4 nw, i think tat i am at a cross road...shld i continue (but having high chances of me being left out) or shld i turn back (where i most likely will return back to my old shelf)....i dont know, seriously....

30/8/06

2006-08-30T22:17:00.000+08:00

wed, got back my results slip...hiazz, it was e straight a's tat made ppl got wild over it, but to mi, i am not rather happi 4 this result...i feel tat i can do better (esp in e & a maths), which obviously i didnt perform as i as i could have...i feel like i am still taking a train ride but ma n yiling r taking a magnev train rain (faster than mi la)..both of them (as what i feel) have already taken advantage of this system (15% means a lot u noee) and try 2 score as high as possible...which i obviously didnt.....

Later, i stayed back 2 help out e sc deco (since it was also raining cats & dogs ma)...n stayed back till 7 p.m.....

This holiday is not going 2 be a holiday 2 mi man...^^

Ma:

Hiazz..there is no nid 2 hide things from gou gou de...i can guess de (see i so clever)...dont keep saying 2 sent mi 2 spca leh...n also, i dont want 2 recieve e songs 2 make a doggie happy de cd 4 presents...i will most prob diao u 4 e rest of u r year...if u try 2 do tat..hee...i dont know wat i will do..but keep in mind tat i am a very creative person who dont use coporal punishment de...^^ Stay happy..

hiazz...

29/8/06

2006-08-29T19:43:00.000+08:00

I am feeling blue today...dunno why also....

As promised ma....(here goes)

Ma, i am so grateful 2 u...lalala....

Seriously, i dont see tat ur black face on mon lol...i dont rmb seeing it la..n i think that u r juz e same ma as i saw all along..(maybe i saw too many sides of u or see 2 mi emo de person tat i thought tat u r all right)....

Wats ur new bf arh? hmm...a pinky with a luohan head ( it is a "it" wat) or isit erm..cant think ani liao (u shld know wat i mean gal since u win mi in dunno hw many sub (but i still win u in avg ^^ Rmb u can only chose 1 hoh..))

[ The above mention is a "it" hoh...but smart gal u shld know wat i mean la...]

Recently, i have been hearing a lot of ppl saying about this la...although u have tell mi alot of times to ignore liao, but i think it is getting worse n worse la......now arh..gt ppl say that it is a square relationship or worse a 6 sided polygon...n it is like i cant sit back e kind liao la...( for your info..i dont like ppl talking behind my back...i would rather that u tell mi straight in e face rather than talking behind my back..i hate it la...)

But dont worry, i am not an emotional people like sc or jas la...actually being emotional can be gd u know..(according 2 mr de rouza)...at least, ur sorrow or ur sadness is being relased by ur tears n u will feel better after crying n rather not bottling it up...

Freaking out....

OBS

2006-08-27T16:32:00.000+08:00

" Let us realize what that happened is beyond our control, but how we reacted to it is within our control."

(SC, that's applied 2 u also...think thru ba)

5 days just well past...let us give u a brief summary of my trip there...

Day 1:

At the jetty, i saw schools like Gan Eng Sian, St Joseph, pasir ris crest, etc..i scanned around, no one whom i know from the other schools in Area 2 was here...so i begin had e thought of how lonely i will be..after i know that yangqin, felica n cheng ho is in my grp (as i dont mixed with them very often)....

At the OBS campsite 1, i suddenly saw a few familiar faces...finally i saw ppl whom i know liao..they r my friends from Naval Base sec (hong tat la)...i think i over reacted la as i went over n hug hong tat, n gigi was like saying woa so gay (actually hong tat himself was also happy that both of us r in e same grp la..atleast got company ma)...

Yup, after that i got to know my grp members from Elizabeth..they r mi, yang qin, cheng ho, felicia, wanqi (qi), kathleen (kat), karyin, weijie, cheng xiong, jogina (jo), joshua, jia hao, tasha, pal, atiqah, and of course hong tat la....n my trainer is selamat..

Ya..first day..e norm stuff la..like ice breaking games n as such...so lalala..nth much..

(at nite got nurse briefing..e nurse de laughter is damm funny la ^^)

Day 2

Went for kayaking trip...Selamat n Eugune (another trainer 4 Neru)..decided 2 have this system which i dont think it benefited me alot ( letting a kayaker n a non kayaker kayak together)...in e end, i was huffin' n puffin' along....as i need 2 paddle twice as hard (sorri arh cheng xiong, i did mean 2 bad mouth u de)...n tats when i get sun tan...i nearly break down from exhausion., which i knew tat i cant...

Then, after kayaking, we still have rock wall climbing..hiazz, it is like i am nearly breaking down n tat u wanna me 2 rock climb? So, i decided 2 try my best la....e first rock wall was still ok, (slanted de ma..so easier 2 climb)...e second 1 was e hardest...(as u cant use ur leg muscles 2 pull u up..but rather u r like doing pull up la)....n i am proud 2 say tat i reached e 8th panel (not an easy feat)..

Ya..saw something big happened during e activity...i saw some1 de life hanging in a precarious manner..all thx 2 pal hu belayed joshua...hiazz..as u know, belaying is an important de job ma...as it is like e climber putting all his life on u ma...but e pal, dont know what he was doing also..when joshua was climbing, i can see e rope is so slacken la (so tat mean tat u r like climbing without a rope like tat)...luckily joshua didnt hurt himself...but i can see him losing trust in pal (they r both in same sch de ma)...

At nite, the canteen uncle gave us e food that we r eating 4 e next 3 days (we will be going treking)...i was like shocked la...as u know, 2 mi, e food can last u 4 at least like 5 days la..its too much alreadi...n yet Selemat wanna us 2 bring ALL....

As i am a store manager (2gether with hong tat la)..we need 2 carry stuff like turp, pegs, ground sheet n stuff like tat+ my clothes tat i am bring, i can only saying tat it is x2 of my taman bag la...luckily got ppl help mi 2 carry my stuffs (karyin 4 carrying my wet shoes, joshua 4 carrying my food 4 e 3 days, kat 4 helping mi 2 carry my jacket+ a set od clothing, n qi 4 helping mi 2 carry mi fruits)..yeah..finally my bag was lighter..(previously i was thinking about e qn of hw i am able 2 support this weight, i was also afraid tat i might fall back wards)..thx ba^^

Day 3

Went treking..actually nth much la..like was selamat says it is only a warmer nia..as we went treking from camp 1 2 camp 2 nia..a short distance nia....yeah..n we also got e chance 2 play flying fox...whee^^

The next activity is wat i like e most la..(rmb e time when i came here with sparkc during my pri 5 de time..we managed 2 build a raft, but in came loose in e water)...woah, our grp arh, marvelous sia..so many idea cames...u can really see this team bond together as evry 1 is doing their part 2 tie every part 2gether, n e feeling was great la...n we call our raft EC 17! We pedalled it out sea...in e end we got sort of like can go but can not go bark e kind...n nw it is selamat 2 e rescue...he gt a speed boat, n he connect our raft with his n whee...we went "skiing"e feeling was just shiok....

N i gt most of e sun burn...

Yup, we den spilt our jobs up la...e boys do e basha n e gals cook....yangqin cook de rice though abit *ahem but still edible la..as 4 we boys, we managed 2 build a nice nice de shelter^^

At nite...we went thru a geo lesson on map reading with selamat(*yawns)...n i finally learnt another map reading skills: 8 grid referances^^den came e horrifying news...4 tml de trekking, we will be on our own (of course gt map, compass, n MGR la)..Selamat will be there, but he will not help us till he feel tat we really need his help....

Day 4...

e nitemare finally came..i was wondering if we could get lost anot....4 e first checkpoint, we gt it wrong...n we nearly miss it...hiazz..tats taught us a lesson on being accurate la...a small mistake could mean something grave...so we decided 2 be more careful be4 we go....

4 e first half of e day was ok..we managed 2 find 5 checkpoint out of e 7...but, all of us r getting more n more tired liao (due 2 e super heavy de bag)...n as e day got longer, we begin 2 get really slower n slower....i too was not spared by e sore muscle pain la...haizz all thx 2 qi who encouraged mi on la...n in e end we encouraged each other n we realli endured e whole trip...

Our grp nearly qurrelled 4 e last check point...e check point is in e middle of no where la...n on e map, there was no trail...la...so of us think tat we r here but others do not think so....qi went out 2 survey on her own (which was kinda dangerous)..n i went after her la...it was only then tat i realize our exact position...n FINALLY we managed 2 locate it..but it was after like a great eye test....(i spotted it de^^)

At nite..settled down 4 e nite..we gt a mini campfire (without fire)...n our grp composed a song...it is something like this :
This is Elizabeth
This is our team
This is our hardwork
This is our raft

This is what we made
This is floating
We're Elizabeth
Elizabeth Choy

Chorus:
Pulau Ubin, our campsite
It's here where we endured
Kilometres we've walked
Accomplished after all...
We've came so far together
Scorched under e hot sun
quarelled here n there
United in e end...

(repeat 1st n 2nd verse)

Lol....in e end e other trainer was like laughing till what sia...aiya..e so old stuff la..ba ba...
den we gt graveyard duty..i volunteered myself 2 do it since i dont really feel like sleeping...hiazz..me jia hao, pal n joshua were all down 4 duty..i was thinking what i can do during e nite as there was nth much 2 do except 2 talk nia....den saw qi n yangqin...both of them also didnt wanna sleep (+ melvin frm neru also)...leaving yangqin with jia hao (they really look like couple 2 mi la)...i n qi talk 4 like till 2 plus la...joshua ,melvin also..we didnt plan 2 slp la..but when we lie down 2 star graze (though not alot of stars)..we fall asleep in e end....

Day 5

Feeling more n more high since we r going bak soon....yeah....we sang all e way as we trek bak...e spirit is getting higher n higher....

Den...came e departing moment (at ard 1 plus la)...all of us was like so sad la...n we give each other a farewell hug be4 we leave..aww...so sad sia (if sc was there, she bound 2 cry de)...

" The closer one get 2 e top, e more e man will find tat there is no top"

Thx every 1 in EC who made my trip in OBS a fun 1....thx 2 all who helped carry mi stuffs, as well as qi 4 providing me tat source of strength n $$ (she kindly lent mi $9 4 buying obs shirt)...thx 2 all^^

P.S. Sc. i heard tat u wanna lend my shoulder arh...feel free ba...coz i lend my fiona mei my shoulder be4 n also qi also (she was like advertising 4 mi hw comfortable my shoulder was la..)
so feel free ba^^... lol^^

P.S.S. Sc...heard alot of stuff la..but always rmb wat i say in e top part of my entry...u will be fine de...

20/8/06

2006-08-20T18:51:00.000+08:00

Yeah...

Ma, dont worry, i will go 2 class de be4 i leave..so if gt ani thing or any farewell de speech u can juz say la....

Ma..i am alreadi thinking of giving u a treat, but cant imagine tat u want something so ex..hiazz

Instructions to ma:

(actually like wat u say in ur previous de post)

Firstly i will be giving u my hw tat i did over e weekend : xi zi, HMT workbk, chem's Acids n Base worksht, Physics' Wrksht on Heat Capacity n Latent Heat, Wrksht on Heat Capacity, Wrksht 28 & 29 (pls take note 4 e physics, only wrksht 29 had been given out 2 u guys)...

(i dont mind if u copy my work la..since i also dont know tat u copied mine..muhahaha)

Secondly, help mi 2 take down ALL my class test de results...

Thirdly, help mi 2 take ALL my hw..(if possible help mi take my a maths de file, i dont want it 2 rot on e compactor or kena stolen)

Fourth, (u say want) due 2 length of day i will be away, as wat u say also, a day 2 day de journal (wat e teacher teach, blah blah) sent 2 mail box everyday..i want 2 see 5 emails in my mailbox...

Fifth, tell Diyana tat u will be taking ALL my staff (if i nvm tell her tml)...n thus that led 2 my 6 point..

Sixth, mark all my assignment tat i give u..n help mi do correction also

Seventh, i will most prob arrive in sch at ard 4 plus on fri..so if u miss mi too much u can see me in sch la..n also give mi all e hw and worksht as well..if not, meet mi either in sch on sat (coZ i got np on sat) or give in 2 mi when i see u during e play

If u do everything tat i say, i promise u la..ur treat..

YUP...thinking of e bright side, i dont have 2 see pinky 4 5 days yeah^^

Dont worry mi about thinking too much about sch wrk, coz i know gt u helping mi ma ^^

Farewell letter 2 ma (she wants de ma):

Dearest ma:

Er zi gt 2 go 2 obs le..it will be a fun trip de..i promise k? Er zi also hereby promise u tat i will not think too much about my school work de..coz gt u 2 help mi ma..mother must help son de right?

Yup, i so touch tat u know mi so well (as least my thinking la)..hw u know tat i going 2 qiong hw on sun i dont know? Maybe telepathy ba^^ or wat, i dont know..but i am glad 2 noe u guys la..u realli rock my world la..^^

So..i thx u 4 everything la..4 pei(ing) mi, helping mi with my sch work, helping mi take down notes...i tell u i am so touched la...thx 4 evrything once again (*sob sob)...as promised, u will have ur treat ba..but i muz say first, it must be less than $20 k? (hook finger)...Aww..going 2 miss u guys soon...

Hope to see u guys soon...stay happy n cute ba ^^

Yours Dearest Son

Going off 4 obs 4 5 days..too miss mi too much ba^^

19/8/06

2006-08-19T18:35:00.000+08:00

This pink look so nice..^^

Lol...starting 2 ponder whether my decision 2 go obs is a right 1...starting 2 think whether this will affect my studies anot..i mean my results are starting 2 decline n as like wat mr zhang says, there will be a lot of pressure on mi as i struggle 2 maintain my results...i dun't know wat but i feel tat my no 1 position is shaking, as i see ppl across e level scoring 90+ for a maths (ppl like siwei la) n i could only muster a 70+ mark 4 mi a maths, i am starting 2 ponder hw big the impact will be...as 4 bio..i dont know wat 2 say la..but i feel tat e scoring marks gt flaw la..i mean ppl do make mistakes rite, n e way miss tow grade e marks is freaking mi out (she will give a 2 mark even 4 1 mistake made) n causing my marks 4 bio 2 drop... 4 emaths..i dont really wanna comment la..i know tat i have disappointed mr ong who believes so much in mi....

As for now, i need every ounce of my luck n pray tat i will score full marks 4 mi class test 4 physics n chem...coz i believe tat they r essential n may help mi 2 pull my overall results up...although i know tat this only a glimmer of hope....n maybe thru my languages n humanities subject, i can pull thru this time....

Final year are coming very soon (in like say 6-7 weeks from now), i dont know hw am i going 2 survive ..(taking a look at e textbk)...man it is not going 2 be easy: a maths de trigo (360 degree n trigo identity), phyiscs de wave property n sound n light waves all e stuff la, bio de many many ambiguous name n function 2 memorize la (wat proximal convoluted tubule, n watever negative feedback stuff); n chem also gt lots of stuff 2 rmb...( e solubility table la)...plus all e watever stuff tat we learn...

Hiazz..looking back, it seem tat time flies very fast..i am only glad tat i had known ma n co...hiazz..maybe ma de theory was right (mr zhang also)..ma de theory was about saying tat there r 2 grp of ppl, 1 grp e realli popular 1 n e other e outcast grp..according 2 her it is tat when u r in e outcast grp tat u can only find ppl tat realli understand u....i am juz glad tat some1 is atleast willing 2 hear mi nag...

P.S. Ma u gt it wrong le about e heat capacity test....erm i shld say tat qn 5 (of e 6 qn she gave) is very very important n e rest also..ya..i didnt ask diyana 2 help mi take la...but tat she is juz doing her peer support de job nia....ya..if i managed 2 see her on mon, i will tell her tat u will help mi take ALL my worksheet...ma i am so impressed tat u know wat i am thinking...e thing about ur relax = when u come bak, more work to do, more kan qiong, nd to study double hard...ya tats wat i planning 2 do also..when i come back from obs, i will ask u take ALL e related stuff when we meet on e play thingy n try 2 mug on sun (n i am thinking of giving miss tow de treat a miss)...no wonder u r my ma..*sobs sobs (so touched) ...as 4 e phyiscs de test arh, only 3 qn nia (10 marks), 1 qn is similar 2 qn 5 (as said earlier)..well i dont think u need 2 worry so much about ur physcis coz i believe tat u will do well de but i think emaths is cause of concern coz it was damm hard...as 4 pinky, i did saw u asking him 2 shut up wat...so sad tat u WONT miss mi..well in e case den i WONT miss u ba~erm i still have wrksht 2 give u la n well i will be giving my intructions 2 go be4 i left 4 obs on mon (tats sun la)..coz i am afraid tat u might 4 get...well, u have not seen e worse frm mi..in sec 2 i am so workaholic tat miss low (form teacher) thought tat i am studying till i had gone crazy and decided 2 dicuss about tat issue with my parents during PTM...

P.S.S. It is not i who always like 2 qurral with pinky, but rather i feel tat he always love 2 pick on mi..everything i do, he not happy n complained here n there..

Hiazz...

18/8/06

2006-08-18T22:22:00.000+08:00

Yup finally all class test is going to stop soon...^^

Ma...dont say i nvm help u with ur physics n emaths de test hoh (well since i can still rmb)...Physics e topic is on specific heat capacity (i know u know)..but here's e warning: e paper is ok, so long as u study hard on e 6 qn tat miss illsya gave u...n also dont count ur chicks be4 they r hatched...other wise i think tat it is ok...

as for e emaths..*cough cough, it is not gonna 2 be easy...e sc e "intelligent" head (yong fei la)..ask mi a qn frm e circle de class test(3 marks de) tat very few ppl (e usual ppl like krsytal n si wei la) in his class can solve...for e first five minute after he gave mi tat qn, i was frantically searching my mind for a property tat can be used on the qn...n of course i cant la..n e ans is not straight forward stuff, u need 2 realli think n feel in circles before u can solved e qn...although i managed 2 came up with e correct ans n also convinced him tat i am right, but i still cant convince myself tat it is e way 2 do it.. luckily i was doing e qn in a relax condition, imagine if it was a test..(it is also a no wonder tat mr ong wanna give us another class test on property of circles, coz i think he know tat it is not easy 2 get high marks 4 tis paper...n he wanna help us out)...n ma, u must pray n hope tat e next time u see me online , i am in a very gd mood, gd mood enough 2 tell u wat qn did e "intelligent" head ask mi...seriously..i had rather a short fuse lately...so all e best 2 ur emaths ba^^

Well, today i nearly argued with pinky again (see i had a short fuse)...for a rather small matter...so wat happened? Apparently he not happy tat i gd high marks 4 mi geo project n he tried 2 influence mr faizal tat he was wrong 2 give mi high marks...coz mr faizal show us a rather impressive work from a 3e5 guy (cant recall)...n seriously frm pinky de expression, he was trying 2 hint tat i was only thru e fact tat i am mr faizal's favourite student tat i can get such a high mark 4 my geo....n 4 tat he was down there happily telling mr faizal hw gd e e5 work as compared 2 mine, and he was tryin' 2 pull down my grades... luckily ma stoped him frm going on..if not e consequences would have been big. thx ba^^ (coz also i was not feeling well today..if u dont know ask diyana ba..i nearly shouted at her today ..)

Pinky, 4 ur information (if u happened 2 read this) we 3 had spend countless of hrs doing tis project..watever tat u see on e slide was a summary of wat we read...n it was not only frm 1 source, but rather frm various sources..we did not simply COPY N PASTE i would have also not approved of such work either...n also, we had spend countless of hr trying to search 4 auckland based de statics (n not e WHOLE N.Z.) it was hard...let mi give u a scenario: i want u 2 give mi orchard road de statics on hw tourist spending on tat region had generate income...u think it is easy? It was like finding a pin amongst e hay...n FYI, wat u guys did was erm "wrong", u guys apparently had not grasp wat mr faizal wants (*he wants detail, let say u do japan, he wants u guys 2 focus on a secific de region say Hokkaido) ...n i noe tat ur (pinky) bu shuang tat i got higher marks than u..n i know tat u think tat i am thru relationship tat i can get so high marks...

hiazz.. seems 2 have a lot on my shoulder lately...well sc de issue alreadi worry mi enough le..n also my results n my cca as well (4 ur information: giraffe related staff)..i am alreadi enough frustrated enough n yet u trying 2 made mi feel even worse...wats tis? I dont think u really understand hu i realli am la...n seriously i am nw thinking of pulling out from bio de team...coz i think there is a limit 2 everything...i am tired..give mi a break n give every 1 a breathing de space...

As for sc, as i said in my previous para..ur action n thoughts realli worries mi (i am sure tat ma n taima think so also) ...wat i wanna tell u is tat: u chose e road urself..when at times u feel like pulling back, u didnt really do wat u say n slide back 2 original position n continue 2 indulge in it...well, since u chose e road urself, u shld have continue with it with courage...well been hearing a lot of gys stuff from mr chin n mr de...as mr chin had said 2 us be4 it takes a lot of hard work 2 keep a relationship going, sometimes u will quarrel, n after tat u will find tat it is needless 2 quarrel..he even admit tat he also gt quarrel with his wife be4...so, in every relationship, u need 2 put in a lot of hard work n stay committed....dont care about wat others had been saying..there was a saying which says something tat love is being selfish...but in e end...this is wat i am going 2 ask u...is this wat u really want? Well, if u give mi a positive ans, i, taima n ma will support u de..n e more u shld continue on with courage...so think about it ba...

ma..read my blog on sun..important!

Hiazz

15/8/06

2006-08-15T19:55:00.000+08:00

~ Hiazz..

today feel so left out at sc...actually i in sc got no really 1 tat i can rely on la n no one really understand mi la...so wat 2 do? but 2 tahan 4 1 more year hiazz..

Sc...arh, maybe it is like from wat u say i dont really understand e situation..which is kinda rite...i am mean i only know abt yihan (mostly) thru e mouth of ma n taima..i didnt realli hear much frm u n thus my view might be 1 sided...but seriously, i dont think that it is ur fault la..yh is juz only acting childishly (ma n taima also agreed)..

Actually, it is still early 2 pull back from the mess (so called) that u have created..like wat i have said 2 u previously (n 2 ma also)..follow ur heart..if u feel that u r right...den juz do wat ur heart says (be unafraid 2 make unpopular decision)... gd luck 4 ur bio mock test ba..^^

P.S. ma...actually u dont need 2 worry about i n pinky la..he juz luv seeing me beaten.n i juz let him la...n i thought u say u can handle pinky? I thought u say u gt secret weapon? I am waiting 2 see ur secret weapon..muhahaha!

14/8/06

2006-08-14T19:54:00.000+08:00

As i promised 2 sc, i shall comment here ba ^^ (if not sc will say that her part in my post is getting smaller n smaller)

-Seriously, in a relationship, there must be trust between e 2 party la...trust 2 give each other some personal space, and some breathing space...yh de thinking is really ( 2 be true la) inmature 4 his age, and e way he reacted is very inmature (u try tell wat yh do 2 ronald n he will most probably be laughing his head off..CH also)..i mean e rust incident n this time, he ignoring u and he worrying whether u will fall for the online guy seem 2 me that he is rather insecure n wanting 2 try 2 gain ur attention as much as possible...

yup..i dunt think he will be blaming u for chosing ur studies over him...coz in his blog i saw this line about wanting u 2 score in ur olvl, den that something about wanting u 2 score every subject with a1...

erm..regarding about e part on no allowing him 2 see ur friends..actually i feel that there is nth wrong about that wat..coz hoh got a bit of gap ma..coz we dont (realli) understand his ite de life n he dont understand our secondary de life...( i mean if ur friends can talk something that is more general like say show bizz...den it is still ok, but dont ur friend will feel weird that u because of yh, wanna change subject topics..wouldnt they even sae more?)...like for example that time, when i saw yh at e yishun stadium n u keep wanting mi 2 talk 2 him...seriously i dont know hw 2 open my mouth..coz got a gap in front of us n i dont know hw 2 break e ice la...so, i chose 2 talk 2 u la...n left e poor him alone...

So in conclusion: I dont think that u r zhong sei qing you..to u r friend mean more important 2 u la..coz why do i sae that..coz u will always feel very sorri whenever that u r late becoz of yh..ya n also that u also want some balance between yh n ur frenz ma..it seems 2 mi tat u r placing ur frenz more important (as what i think la..coz got 1 time u despo despo want 2 go out 2 talk even if it was 4 15 mins nia)...

Sc u muz give take back e $$..coz not only ma will be hungry, but also ma will not give mi allowances (coz ma say that ur nvm give her $$)...

P.S. ma..i think u win mi atleast 3 subject liao...emaths, bio and amaths...tats wat i feel la, though nth had been said on emaths n bio..well dont think evrything as boring n dry..see it as a challenge to ur self...coz circles is not like squares n rectangle..it is never fixed...n it is flexible..well this kind of system is also wearing mi down.. dunt feel so pathetic la...n seriously i dont think u can handle pinky n his chant n making fun of ur name...^^lol..

P.S.S. ya..actually i can feel 4 u la ma...n it is nth much la..since i also need 2 stay back..so might as well as i spent e time waiting 2 pei u...lol..aiya dont need 2 think more about pinky n brain...i think i am mature enough 2 handle such feeble attack

Hiazz

Harry Potter

2006-08-13T18:00:00.000+08:00

yeah..harry potter...ytd, i ended up chatting with ma about harry potter..i really admire and have full of praise for her...she take 1 n a half year 2 read e book 5 (she haven finish yet and she was now at about 3/8 of the book..according 2 what she said)...and the best thing was that she managed 2 read finish half blood prince without even reading e order of phoenix...woa! Amazed n impressed that she can fill e gap between book 5 n 6...(i am sure that u got a lot of qn when u read bk 6 de ma...). Aiya, ur book is alreadi rotting on the desk la, and by the time u finished it bk 7 would most likely be published liao. So wat i am going 2 do here is that i am going 2 write a summary for bk 5 n u can forget about reading e bk liao...yeah^^

( If u really dont want 2 spoilt ur mood 4 reading e bk then ignore this part ba)

Well, i shall continue e part which u haven read ba..but before i continue, let mi say it in point form about wat happened before

1) Umbridge (this was known in later part of the story) set dementors on Harry n his cousin...harry survived but it reminded his uncle n aunt(petunia) the danger of having harry as a surrogate de son

2) They wanted 2 chase him out, but dumbledore (again this is known in e later part of the story) de howler reminded petunia about e pact they set 15 yrs ago..

3) Harry risked explusion but all thanks 2 dumbledore, harry is allowed back 2 hogwarts..

4) Back in school, Umbridge is the new defense against dark arts de teacher (as dumbledore had problem finding 1 as e job is jinxed..[every year change 1 time since dumbledore refused 2 let lord voldermort 2 take e post])..e minstry is trying 2 interfer with hogwarts..

5) Umbridge decided 2 not teach thm n letting them practice defense magic..instead it was only based in theory..(juz reading e textbk nia)...

6) Harry claimed that Lord Voldermort had returned...umbridge dismissed it as lies n made him 2 write lines using his own blood as ink

7) A number of educational decrees are being set in attempt 2 control hogwarts..this includes umbridge de rights 2 inspect teachers n having e right 2 dismiss them if they r found not doing their jobs (umbridge hates half human n because of this hagrid n trawenley suffered); de rights 2 inspect ppl de fireplaces n parcels n letters (which meaning that they have no more privacy); banning organization (quadditch team included); teachers not allowing 2 dicuss material outside their scope of their job (when news that 10 death eaters escaped e prison is spread around e school), and a educational decree declaring that umbridge is e new mistress of school...

8) Harry's life becomes miserable when umbridge banned him from quadditch as well as e locking of his firebolt in e dungeons..e only pleasure that harry had in sch was e forming of Defence Assoication (also known as Dumbledore's army, DA for short).. DA was 2 teach pupils dark arts n letting them practice....n of course he was e ring leader n e teacher la...

9) However, cho de friend tell tales of DA 2 umbridge..In a bid 2 save harry, dumbledore decided to claim that it was his idea, which later he fled..Umbridge become e new head mistress..(interesting 2 note that e dumbledore de office had been sealed automatically 2 prevent umbridge de entry)

10) Harry continues 2 have this vision as well as a dream about e long dark corridor in e ministry of mysteries...lord voldemort begins 2 sense e connection betwen harry n him..(Lord Voldermort sensed that when harry penetate deep into his thoughts on e nite when he attacked aurther weasley...In a bid 2 save him professor dumbledore decided 2 asked snape 2 teach him occlumency ( a study 2 help close harry mind)..however dumbledore did not realized tat some wounds lie too deep liao (snape is kena bullied by james, sirus n gang..), and snape chased him out..

11) The climax continued 2 when harry saw e vision tat sirus is being tortured...hermoine ,in a clever move, managed 2 lure umbridge 2 e forest...together with their DA members, they went 2 ministry of mysteries together, to only find that harry was wrong n also tat he found out about e lost prophecy...sirus black in an attempt 2 save harry dies when falling thru e veil..

12) The prophecy is 2 one's parent thrice defied e lord voldermort, and is born at e end of july..lord voldermort shall mark him as equal, and that he had power (e power of love) tat lord voldmort don't have, also in e end only one person will live..interestingly this prophecy refers 2 both harry n neville

Ya..also all e side plot about cho n harry (they break in e end coz cho thinks that harry place hermione more than her)..ron getting jealous that hermione kissed with krum and that his snogging(kissing) with luna lovegood in attempt 2 spite her (actually they liked each other de)..

(the above is rather summarized la..coz if i write down every thing then e entry will be beri long..got an qn pls ask thru ur blog ba..i will try 2 reply)
(copyrighted: Harry Potter n e order of phoenix.first edition, publisher: bloomsbury, author: J.K.Rowling)

P.S. yA..no only mi la..ahma n taima will also b e first 2 buy de..erm isit that ur mind arent working when e teacher asked u about e right n left hand thing..i thought that it shld be in u liao la...lol..continue 2 work on ur book ba..jia you^^

P.S.S. sc, ur new de blogskin is very nice ^^ ehh..dont feel so demoralized about ur chinese de results la...u had alreadi put in ur best effort n it is no use fretting over it..i think u can score better in ur retest de..jia you ba ^^

12/8/06

2006-08-12T20:09:00.000+08:00

~ Arghh, kenna wake up because of my baka bro who made a din in e morning...so i have a blue blue de sat....

Next week is going to be e last week of test yeah^^ Finally finally...this system is wearing mi down...imagine every piece of your work must be done neatly n ensure that everything is trim n proper (coz every assignment got marks de)...must be perfect also ( example: miss tow marked a assignment even with 1 tiny mistake as a b grade..nvm going 2 extort $$ from her on next sat)...den still got class test somemore...lol..our class not e worse class...i heard from mr tee that e1 got 5 test in a row (imagine: 5 test= 5 subject...)...

SC...when did i abandon u 4 my fiona mei? it is just that we juz arranged 2 go makan nia...ya..if u want i can turn my blog 2 a mail box...u write something in ur blog..i will try 2 reply them in my next entry..ma made use of that liao...tats y always say that ma always appear in my blog...provided that u want tat service la..(maybe i next time considering charging...muhahaha)...oya for e long long de entry i am still writing (in fact i onli wrote about 1/8 of what i intended 2 write (like writing harry potter like tat)...so i will take my time n man man de write ba (* evil smile)...(later ma jealous...)

ma...i think u can go write a book le about ur embrassing moments n e book of ur so-called lame de jokes..if u really publish i will b 2 first 2 buy de^^

Hiazz...

11/8/06

2006-08-11T20:05:00.000+08:00

Let mi share with u a joke...

Early in morning, i woke up 2 find that my unit tee was missing from my cupboard..usually, it will be there 4 mi 2 take 2 school 4 fri de training...feeling panicky...i went ard 2 search...missing! N u know wat? I heard that my unit tee n my pe t shirt apparently flew off the window (while hanging 2 sun la)...and apparently no one knew till i brought it up todae...

Tats was y i didnt eat my breakfast... n tats y zhi yu (or was it pinky?) who say that i was eating mi ai xin de breakfast (wanna vomit when i hear it)...

Then...parade...i was with e sec 2...well, the sec 2 dont know this la...e reason y ahmad sir stop e training a few times 2 talk 2 us...e reason is that e sec 2 standard r no up 2 standard yet..(he felt [n i agreed with him also] gg n sj de drills are better than e sec 2 de...obviously i feel embarrssed la (well, it is also not my squad wat.. i mean i can onli help them 2 tat extent rite...) so i decided 2 break them into 2! ta-Da...e prob is half solve liao...can see tat they r paying more attention (also due 2 e fact that we separated jian long n tinesh..at least e sec 2 can focus liao^^)

P.S. ahma..u r e person who say tat u like surpises de lol..hw can i publish 2 draft when u already knew that i am going 2...so u man man wait ba...but dont worry i will de^^ erm..when did i study 1 chapter in 1 hr and 1 sentence in 1 min and somemore summarize + understanding? Actually hoh, i ma mu 2 teasing alreadi la..so dont worry too much^^

P.S.S. I am so proud of u..u pass ur a maths! At least u win mi in 1 subject ^^ seriously dont feel too sad about ur mt results....cheer up ba

P.S.S.S. Taima..next sat is saekae treat (@ paragon some more)..mux try 2 da bao 4 ma n ahma..they veri despo 4 saekae liao...(can see) ma keep asking mi 2 da bao...

Lol..ahma like tat fair le ma?

10/8/06

2006-08-10T19:40:00.000+08:00

Oh no!! *shakes head...holiday are coming 2 an end le....

So, todae is another boring day...spent half of my morning with ma, ahma and taima...weird sia...it was ahma who said to meet us at 10 a.m. (i say later abit, she said cant), and yet she was the one who is later than taima n me...ma also...ppl now adays seem 2 be late of anithing....i rmb got 1 occasion i arrange 2 meet jeff...and he was e one hu made mi wait 4 1 hr...actually i hate ppl that r late lol...luckily i brought my books along...if not u can hear me grumble 4 e whole day...

Well the sense of earliness is also trained by np de...well, we used 2 have a system...if ani one is late for anithing..be it juz 1 min onli...he or she would have 2 treat everybody that was present a drink[ usually bubble tea...with many pearls e kind] or something that is edible (must be subjected 2 and approved by all e ppl in e grp)...lol! And nw i dont even dare 2 be late 4 anithing...

So...

Well, after i left them, i went 2 poly clinics 2 have my checkup 4 my OBS camp...and in e end i came back furious...luckily my mom n my bro had super glue on their ears, coz i was grumbling 4 e whole day since i came back..

Wat happened? Read on ba...

Well, i arrived at 2 polyclinc @ 2 plus...I asked 2 pre counter stuff about e filling up of the OBS thingy and she juz gave mi a no 4 mi 2 wait...( e wait was like 1 hr la)...never mind about that...worse came later...(below was y conversation with e staff)

Staff: " Well, this OBS form need $25..Do u have e $25?" (well, in e first place e precounter ppl nvm tell mi anithing about e $$..mr tan( hod) was like saying that going 2 polyclinc was cheaper...worse still, e staff spoke 2 me as if i owed her a living n that her tone was like looking down on mi)

Of course i relied:' I didnt...Do i need 2 requeue?"

What e staff siad made mi boiled: " Well that depends on hw long u take..."

i:" ..." (Obviously she is like looking down on mi la...)

So, i called my bro and asked him 2 take down 2 extra cash...n it was another 1/2 hr wait...

Then, the staff 2 (when it was finally my turn) asked :" Do u bring u nric?"

And i was like" What e hell! e first personnal didnt tell me anithing about nric and yet she nw tell mi 2 bring nric"

And for the rest of the time i was at e counter, she gave a rather black face...

It was another 1 hr wait be4 i saw e doctor in person...at first i told that it was so ex because got watever injections...in e end..nth...juz e doctor lifting his bloody pen and write a few lines and his signature... $25 ...

Well..wat made mi furious is not the $25, but i feel that e money is not well spent la...for $25, u need 2 wait 4 atleast 2 hrs, having 2 see a very black faced de staff...

I would rather spent my $25 at my nearby de clinics la...even if need 2 pay extra i wouldnt mind la...at least i dont need 2 wait 4 2 hrs..i will also be greeted by similing staff....

P.S. ahma dont be jealous k? I will write u a very long de post..but as like wat u said earlier...it is no use for me 2 delicate 2 post 2 u if it wasnt from my bottom of my heart...dont worry...i have been writing a veri long de post n it is being saved as my draft...when it is time i will publish it de k? Give mi a smile ba ^^

9/8/06

2006-08-09T16:42:00.000+08:00

( Been wanting 2 show this long time ago le...zhi yu n jiahui acting cute in taman ^^)
( If u wanna have a clearer look on hw they act cute...click on e pics ba ^^...zoom in at ur own discreet ba)

Yay!!! It's holiday!!! Its holiday!!! 3 days some more sia... ^^ Finally, i can have a break from all the studies n all the worries....I noe it sound like typical ma but in the first place who dont like holidays? Holiday means fun and dont even need 2 care about anithing, it also meant freedom!!

Haha, but for the teachers, i know that they will most probably be spending their holidays marking assignments, class test or looking after their children n making up for the lost time they had not spent with their children....

I know that ma will be happy to hear this...i have not touched my books for today and i dont even intend to hit the books today ^^ Yup, i have long wanting to give myself a long deserved break le...to rest is to continue the rest of ur journey with vigour ma....it's also no wonder that i caught the cough flu from ma, i am too tired le...tat maybe my immune system went down....

So u must be asking wat i am i doing for today? Well...i think i am a clean freak today...coz today i decided 2 spring clean my room...no more dust n no more worries! (another reason is because nearby my block there is an on going constuction work going on...all the dust la..) Hiazz...all the scrubing and cleaning made me tired! Well, it also made me realized how dirty my cupboard is...so everything is trim n proper.... also to let me forget all my hw for once!

Of course, it is one of the spring cleaning that my mom saw the cute cute de cow (which is placed neatly a corner of my cupboard [also to serve as a reminder than i am not alone...])...well, feelin' curious, she asked la: ' Wat's the cow doing down there?"

And trying to be a good son ma, i replied as truthfully as i could :" Well, my friends give me a late late birthday gift la."

Well, my mom didnt quite believe it la, and casted me a look (of course i know wat she was thinking la [mother n son ma]..) :' Birthday gift? And u know hw many months is it from ur birthdae le ma?'

And i was like: "...."

Hiazz... ma, taima n ahma de xin yi are missed interpret by her la...i know wat my mom is thinking la...and i knew that the more i say, there worse it will be la... so i chose to keep mum on tat...

P.S. Ahma, u must take care of urself hoh... i heard about u falling sick le( hmm wonder if it was ma who was the spreader ^^) take the three days to yang bing ba...let ur self think of nth (i know ur mind is preoccupied by something [yh]) and really let urself rest la...i know its hard 4 u but then wat else can u do? the best thing to do nw(as wat i feel) is 2 cure ur sickness n u will den have the energy n zest to face everything that u will meet and face in ur life ^^ dont think too much stuff (stuffs like e cliff theory, n thinking whether we will miss u anot, n e slashing ur arm de thought) coz it will made u feel worse de, u will feel even like crying n really be more depressed la....yup dont worry...we will ALL missed u de^^ k....cheer up n be happy ba ^^

P.S.S. Ma, dont worry la...i will eat ALL the sweets tat u, ahma, n taima made de...so i will definately eat u made de....ya i can SEE all ur effort liao ^^

More taman pics be4 i write off...

Hiazz..all the taman memories begin 2 flood back again...

Have a nice holiday ^^

8/8/06

2006-08-08T17:12:00.000+08:00

Ya..I am so touched...( It really brightened up my day)....

*a big bear hug 2 ma, taima n ahma...(dunno whether can hug all 3 at e same time anot...jk jk nia)

Well, ma, ahma, n taima gave mi a late late birthday gift...i didnt expected it la...coz it was like so many months from my birthday (to be exact: 3 n a quater month)...n i was like nvm already la...since no one give so i suan le u noe....

Never did i expected it...

Three months later....(to be exact ytd la) ,they told mi that they wanna 2 meet mi before my sc meeting (as claimed by taima n ma: they wanna talk 2 mi about ahma); not only that they wanna invite go out la...

Yup...then came my surpise moment la (ma seem like a santa claus todae la...her bag seem 2 pop out alot of gifts...) well, u must be asking wat was i feeling when i recieved the gift la...well, i was rather surpised (coz it was like so many months away from my birthday n i already suan le); touched also ( by their hard work in giving mi e gift); a sense of guiltiness (coz ma n taima n ahma still rmb 2 give mi present, while i have not given them any...luckily i have still have 4 more months be4 christmas ^^)....

well, inside e cow de money box la...there is so much sweets n chocalate...(think i going 2 have a sweet tooth soon)

Too bad, i dont have a camera, if not i can take e pics of the cute cute e money box la n post it here...

P.S. ahma...u dont worry la...we ( taima n ma n mi la) will all miss u when u leave ai de...n ya..u r not lonely k? coz still got ma n taima n mi la....

P.S.S. ahma..u got it wrong liao...the sentence " If i am a dog, i can live with nau nau at ma's hse is written by mi n not by taima...hmpf..

P.S.S.S. ma...i know that u don't really love 2 hear this but i still got 2 say...better perpare a cotton bud 2 sch on fri...coz apparently pinky n co have a new found interest : to tease ur name (e s*** thingy) . I hear it a few times in e sc meeting la...(but dont let it spoilt ur mood la)...n i a bit bu shuang already la...

Wishing all my readers a Happy National Day Holiday^^

7/8/06

2006-08-07T21:13:00.000+08:00

Ya...really wanna destress myself....

So, when ma was like suggesting tat they r asking mi out, i was actually quite happy la...coz long time nvm can go out n have fun like be4....'

But then, little did i realize tat tml is the fifteen of the seventh month...so i had rather a big quarrel with my mom whether i shld go out tml since tml is the fifteen...well as u know that old wifes tale la...about wat cannot go out on the fifteen la as u noe wat la...n of course cant go home late la ba ba (if u wanna know more, go see the maid ba)...my mom was like quite angry tat i am going 2 escape la...u noe e infamous accident...some more tml is the fifteen....(i think arh if nvm go escape my mom will not be so angry la)

bUT, as my mom as put it if on other day she will let de...but too bad la..since tml is fifteen...

So conclusion: I cant go out tml....

Nvm,looks like i only have a date with my books over the next 3 days ba!'

Must work hard to strive for better results! ^^

6/8/06

2006-08-06T15:17:00.000+08:00

After taking a one day break, gou gou realized how much he missed...

Well, since i know that i am mentally drained, i chose to spent my whole sat reading Angels n Demon (it is also time for me to return it 2 ma le). For me, it was a way to break away from everything...my books, my revision n of course my computer.

Of course, i am enjoying every moment of the book, with the climate of my day leading up to the watching of super band finale...

Gou gou is charged up le...but not totally..hiazz...

As for my sun, realising hw much i missed, i spent e whole day revising...

Juz now, i spent 15 minutes reading ma n ahma de blog (man, they are super long), n finally realized that i missed out alot...

To ma:
To be frank, gou gou didnt see that u r riding a emotional roller coaster...till i read both u n ahma de post...well, gou gou didnt really know the situation in guides n thus i cant comment much...but gou gou do feel sad when u say that e comm do need u n tat u cant think of wat things besides drills n campcraft...well, for my perspective, gou gou feel that e comm still need u...why? becoz every member of the comm actually contribute to the whole success of gg, no matter hw small their part play...
gou gou is also facing the same problem as u wat...but did gou gou give up on np? Well if u still cant see it, let me draw parallels for u 2 see...ya..i agreed that the sec 4 nco (of 2004) is still e best..those days were strict but fun with great leaders like hao jun n li heng...my interest in np started 2 wane when chipeng took over our squad( peiyu n jiaying de batch is still ok)...y? tat cp...is damm unreasonable...he simply likes to scold us (even if there is really nth 2 scold, he will still be able 2 find something to scold)..there was even a joke in np that every body in e our squad had a mass quiting (every one quit np) in protest. Coupled with that li quan (also another cp) took over the ci rein, i even feel like quitting, esp that big rumor is spoiling my every moment in school. Gou gou also feel that he is alone in np since there is really no one i can talk to...But in the end gou gou did not...why? coz gou gou see a spark of hope, a spark that one day i will be able to set e trend back 2 hao jun de days ...so gou gou decided to be more enthu in np...

Well, ma, since u have 1 more year in gg n tat u dont wanna quit, why not make the most out of it? i know that talk is cheap, n tat taima isnt there (e more u feel lonely ba)...i know that talking is useless...but wat gou gou wanna tell u is that dont ever give up...u r so near...tahan 1 more year n it will be over...if gou gou like u so xiang bu kai, gou gou shld have quit np 1 yr ago le...i must say that u r luckier than me...at least u got budding friend that is able to share ur woes about gg (taima n ahma la), gg de welfare is atleast better than np...so consider urself lucky le...wat gou gou went thru is worse than u n yet gou gou managed to come out of it...really, esp tat every one is in their cliches (even in my squad) n i really feel alone...i can onli open up in front of my comp (tats y i started blogging last year)...jiang xin bi xin, i must say tat u r luckier than mi......

Well, as for the fact u think u have learnt nth in gg...think again...wat gou gou learnt in np is also another pull factor for me not 2 quit np...so u must be asking wat i have learnt right? Well, leadership, communication skills with others, team work, being more patient n more understanding, n not 2 do 1 man show (gou gou used 2 do things alone)...all this stuff is valuable to me...things that i wouldnt learnt outside np...i am sure that u learnt all these in gg...i am sure of it...so y give up when u r nearing the ending learnt..

my mom used to tell me" bai ren cheng jin" (smth like enduring for a while n u will see it reap ur rewards)whenever i meet situation like these... n nw i am going 2 tell tat 2 u..n hope tat u really listen lol...well of course u cant "ren" too much...if u feel that u cant take it..u cant always find me,sc, taima to talk to...

Well,gou gou dont know hw much this will help u but i really wanna see u happy soon ^^

P.S. Seriously, i dont really mind being sandwiched between ur 3...but sometimes it is hard for mi to communicate...really...gou gou is only glad that gou gou is still needed by u guys...n i will be happy le....

P.S.S well i was surpised to know that ma ,taima,sc, susan didn't join gg in e first place...ma n susan is co de, taima is choir(think so...or is it dance?), and ahma is ex sc de...no wonder all e talk about second class citizen! lol...

1/8/06

2006-08-01T19:58:00.000+08:00

Stress!

Oya, blog blog about my nee ann trip! e sch is damm big la...we were like saying its is 10 times of ai...canteen alone got 3 already...rt, kaya, pinky n i spent 1 hr walking ard 2 plave n we have not even explore e whole place yet...comp was ok la...

Come back home...onli 2 find a mountain of stuff 4 mi 2 do...ss test, mt test, emaths test, geo assignment, eng wrksht, phyiscs wrksht, mt project....sia la..jos was right! teachers seem 2 stress us on alternate week...one week stree, e other week not really stress...

Give mi back my ca ba...

Hiazz

30/7/06

2006-07-30T15:41:00.000+08:00

Moi 50th post...n i shall delicate it 2 ma, taima n ahma

I agreed with ahma...totally...

(hopes that taima reads this)

Well, maybe u think that being in the comm is very fun... maybe...but have u heard of backstabbing, quarrelling, betrayal and stuff like that happening in a comm. In the end, u might be losing a best friend rather than gaining 1...Coupled with the fact that u will be stressed out in e comm (due 2 high workload) u might find that u will break down in the end...u might have heard that i nearly quarreled with giraffe because of ideology differences...do u wanna that 2 happen? Do u wanna break a friendship bond that took 3 years to build up? I am sure that u dont want that 2 happen right? If u despair n sink urself n keep blaming that the selection is not fair, the more u will prove to illysa that she is right 2 exclude u...why not take this opportunity n outshine the others in the comm...n prove her wrong? Ya...we all still care about u...

Ma...pls dont blame urself for the mistake that u have blundered....i am sure that taima was not angry with u but rather angry with e whole guides...she thinks that e whole guide is biased against her...let her cool down ba...it also not ur fault that taima gets excluded de...it is not as if u were the person chosing e comm...yea...dont keep blaming urself...we (including ahma) thinks that u are not wrong....cheer up ba!

P.S. I cut my hair till it is very short..i think i gonna wear a mask 2 sch tml...

Haizz

29/7/06

2006-07-29T16:43:00.000+08:00

Haizz...

Today, a lot of things happened in sch. First, it is e np rod parade, followed by ncc land n ncc sea parade...

Well, i send my congrats here to hafis, darrel, yoke hong n karthi for making it to the USM n AUSM post!

Ytd, nearly qurraled with giraffe over a lot of issues...firstly, he made a (big) mistake...on the plan, he told us that 4.30p.m. was the time that e sec 1 n 2 had their campcraft lesson...but he wrote 4.00p.m. on the NP. board (inside e room)...which means that we r bascially over time n nearly had 2 cancelled away the last period, interaction time....

Next, he told me that the sec 2 had learnt belok, but both of us did not forsee that not all e sec 2 had attended the last parade, n yet giraffe told me 2 revise with them bolok n teach them saluting 2 e front/left/ right while marching...So, it was a mission impossible! (coz i got 2 teach them 4 drills in 2 hrs)

Thirdly, giraffe told fiona to teach them hurricane lamp. But in actual fact, the sec 1 had learnt it liao...what the sec 1 had not learnt (which giraffe thought they have) is the 7 simple knots...we (i n fiona)were all throw off guard la....

P.S. congrats 2 ma who got into e comm...but i noe life isnt complete since taima isnt in....well, i can really see e both of u putting in a lot of effort into guides, including the cute little watever book u call...be a thinking leader n not a follower leader.

P.S.S taima, actually i was shocked that u did not get in e comm...speechless when sc told me...i thought that u will be in e comm...u must be wondering why i am shocked? coz i see qualities in u tat i didnt see in others...maybe..it is fate ba...or it is like wat sc had said (po the wrong person liao)...2 be frank, i think i am also the victim of this..i offended li quan too much liao..(who ask liquan 2 be e boss in ai?) i am only lucky that we had a small squad, which means that everybody would be in comm..actually vice chair is juz only a nice sounding name nia...e fact is tat i dont have much power in np...e "brain" of np is giraffe n lilian,zhi jun is e aorta of the heart, while i am only the pulmonary artery of the heart nia...so u can see la..not going into e comm doesnt mean the end of ur guiding life...u can still continue to be passionate about guides, putting in more effort than others...ya...just do wat u think is right 2 do...

P.S.S.S. ma...if u think that u cant even enjoy ur weekend...think about me n u will noe tat u r life is better than mi...i have a mountain of task before me 2 complete..if i dont complete them over e weekend, i will be in dead shit...coz i got 2 be even busier next week...ya..dont be think too much about having a lonely week..coz u can always find me or taima online....

27/7/06

2006-07-27T19:43:00.000+08:00

well...

todae was a fine sunny day...

this week was one of the best week thAt i had (in terms of the stress level)...fews test this week except the spa test n the maths competition n of course that a maths test..

Well, for the maths competition, for the first 11 qn was still realitvely easy, but after that it became more hard...i had to rely on my guess n check method n my tikam skills...for me, the guess n check method sometimes work ok, however, it was just time wasting nia...

After that, i followed liyi 2 the computer lab...my initial plan was 2 help her nia...but when i saw the work that zhi yu n kelvin had sumbitted, i knew that if i submitted my work (that i had done in class n sumbitted), i will be at a losing end.In the end, i decided to edit my work abit, by adding another shape tween (using circles as background) and changing the background colour to black....da lang....miss ernie saw it n said that it was much better than the previous one...yeah!

P.S. Ma, if u say that u r in super low esteem...den wat i am i in? in even super lower esteem...come on...i had to endure this terrible week with constant reminder of me nearly failing my class test...well, believe in urself k? The maths topic isnt really that hard, but requires more of ur thinking cells nia...if u think that u can do it, u will!No one is sptuid in this world, everyone is a special being! If u worry(or think) too much u will soon have a lot of white hair!~ Dont worry, cheer up, k?

26/7/06

2006-07-26T18:49:00.000+08:00

Well, i am here 2 ans why i am moody (not sad)(diyana n ma seems concerned)for the last three day...it is due 2 following 3 reasons...

(not in order of severity)

1) Of course the big issue of the week... I am almost failed my class test for maths. Almost...and get sucky results for my add maths. I dont know why my hard work did not translated into results. I am being underdone by me (too be frank). It is not that i dont know how to do, but rather carelessness. For qn 1 of my class test (maths) , it is supposed to be a 5 sided figure (sort of), i see it as a 4 sided figure and thus my six marks flew.

2) The fact that i had almost nth to do in np but to talk and give idea. i juz recieved the training info of this friday. I am supposed to help haikal (even haikal agreed on it) and yet, i saw parthiban's name only, after haikal n fiona...what the hell! Well, to be frank, it is just not my style. I prefer to be involved in things and be part of everything....so the abandon feeling just came la....

3) Some sort of friendship problem ...i think that it was the way i handled the matter that cause me to be in the center of conflict... ma n taima is angry with ahma for not confiding in them,choosing me instead ; and ahma is sad that i spilled the beans to taima n ma..all the talk about the green eye monster is just a shield nia (from my perspective), u might as well say that i am the one who acceralate the problem! I wouldn't mind if u tell me straight in the face but the fact that nth had been said made me feel even worse...i feel that i should not have step in in the first place....so frustating!(that explain why i have seems 2 have more white hair lately)

Sum up : a not very happy Jon!

Yup, i am nominated and i am part of sc now (moral dept)...guess i had to work even harder liao...

25.7.06

2006-07-25T19:34:00.000+08:00

Phew...apparently miss toh dont have firefox n dont know wat is firefox...so i am tempoarially safe...i think i going to have some more features to enchance the security of the content of my blog..this r the few that i can think of:

1)Before i blog, i muz filter my mind to censor info out...i may use names that ppl close 2 mi will understand nia...
2)Only firefox can be used to use to view my blog
3)Setting a password for my blog...(thinking nia)

lol...ma is so hardworking..i realise that liao...she will read both ahma n my blog first. Then she will then report in a summary form to taima on the next day...no matter hw late ahma blog, she apparently will go n read! I am amazed, after all she had a mountain of hw n resion 2 do....

Ya...ahma..u realli dont nid 2 think too much about the 3 is a crowd theory...i onli see that the both of them is ur best frenz tat i decide 2 tell them a bit...i am so sorry 2 disappoint u la...

Lol, diyana is right..i am feeling moody for the past 2 days...ya...it couldnt help by the fact that i nearly failed my maths, got sucky results for my add maths (all thanks to my carelessness, i think i will fail shld mr tee nvm remind mi about e mistake i made in qn 1)...so.. i think i better reflect upon myself on hw 2 prevent such kind of mustakes...luckily i was not the one who did make this mistake: 120/20=60...my mood was slightly lifted when only i found that i wrote a model essay n top mark 4 physics test...

$20...my $20 just flew to buy the stupid play tickets...my blood nearly boiled over when i found out that my bro's sch CSS will be subsidising them to watch the Forbidden City (which was dunno hw many times nicer than watching remeo n juilet)...the ticket is $29, n they onli need 2 pay $9 nia..wats more, the $9 is paid thru edusave, which means that they watched it for free! What the hell! We pay $20 just to watch remeo n juliet n later needing 2 write an play review...Bull shit la!

23/7/06

2006-07-24T18:13:00.000+08:00

Ya, todae is basically a sucky day 4 mi...having monday blues now!~

The infamous incident that happened in class....Well, i am not sad that i nearly funked my emaths (i passed by half a mark)(i understand that sometimes ppl do make mistakes...n i was penalised not becoz i dont noe hw 2 do but pure carelessness), but rather disappointed and angry with the way harrith acted in class. Well that stupid harrith laughed at mi in class la...hang on a minute, did i laughed at ppl when i got first in level...well it bascially showed how poor upbring that harrith had la...ya..i dont mean that u cant joke but there must be an apporiate time n venue 2 joke...boys are sometimes so insensitive (like pinky also, i am sure ma n sc will agree de)( though i am a boy also la)...
Haizz...

Then, back in np...i find myself the last one 2 know everything again...no one tell mi anithing...well, an abandon feeling...

P.S. SC, dont be sad k? Cheer up ba...if u say u can u can de! Jia you ba!Must always rmb that ur 3 frenz r always there for u de!~ I am so sorry about that, but u can always find mi ( if u gt ani xin shi) de...dont worry, be happy, k? Smile ba!

22/7/06

2006-07-22T17:46:00.000+08:00

Yup, feel better liao....

P.S. ma and ahma dont be angry k? I didnt really want 2 held up sc de....realli...its juz that she need some one 2 talk 2...no...i didnt mean that she cant talk 2 u guys, she still need ma n ahma e best, but sometimes do u feel that she has some things 2 tell u guys? give her time 2 let her talk 2 u guys k? i am sure that she will tell u de ,k? show her more concern ba...i am sure that sometimes u will nid ppl 2 talk 2 u, giving u a listening ear, advising u wat 2 do...since we are all human ma...we all have feelings de...dont be angry k? give mi a smile ba! cheer up!

P.S.S. i am so sorry....

21/7/06

2006-07-21T20:45:00.000+08:00

ya....todae was my turning point in my ai n np life....

lets begin with e sc interview ba....seriously, i dont noe hw i fare for it lol...i kept repeating my words...miss nah asked almost everything la....from school work to np....

then, it is time for bigger surpise liao.....*drum roll...guess wat my post in np is? Vice chair...an a dont noe wat 2 say sec 3 squad (tats my own squad la) 2 take...well i dont noe la....but den i have this kind of werid feeling in mi la...that i am being abandoned to one side n nobody really cared about...(maybe even just a nice name nia)...maybe i offended liquan too much la or is it like wat zhijun(our chair) had said la...that i am a second chipeng lol...but den wait a minute, when am i like chipeng? Whenever a teacher (or any one )asked mi 2 do a task, i will do it with my heart n soul de la (mdm xie also agreed)...(even wynn sze (sec 1 nia)had said that giraffe can be seen slacking around la)....i not like chipeng la (aleast in e sense)...well, i not susposed 2 say this la (hopes that cp nvm see this), yang rong quitted sc is because of the politics in sc and also that he cant really worked with him...he admitted also that of his exo members, he cant really stand cp working attitidue la...so am i like chipeng? Maybe e ci thought so and thus put mi in a position ( where every body noe mi veri well, instead of e lower sec aquad).........

Ya, seriously, i am ok....really (hopes that my reader dont ani hw think la)...i will be fine after a while....

Haizz...

20/7/06

2006-07-20T18:49:00.000+08:00

Yeah...i finally got gold for my nafa....my 2.4 run timing improved by 2 min (from my sec 2 timing la) and i got 12.59 for my run...haha...after like 3 years in ai, i finally got gold liao....lol!

After the run, i feel so damm giddy sia (maybe due to lack of oxygen in my brain), and i was feeling sleepy also....well, i couldnt help but to yawn loudly in mr ong class la (i didnt really meant it de lol)...n for the whole day, nth could lift my mood up....

Well, i am also here to rebutt some of the things that sc said in her blog:

1) Higher Mother Tongue and Mother Tongue DO co-exist....
2) rt n sc, u r no need to siam to one corner la...i am sure that ma need ur more than she need mi de lol...reallii...
3) I am not pian xin de lol....sc, u ask mi wat 2 do with ma and this was my best respond to help her, since she didnt really want to tell mi further on her feelings...
4) It is not as if i cant delicate a whole entry to you (sc), but i must have something to write about wat....i am sure that u dont wanna mi 2 write that sc is the chairman of hua chi club ba...
P.S. btw, wat is chao AA?

After seeing wat ma had done, i decided to follow so (sc wouldnt bugged mi 2 write a post liao...ya)

ALL ABT SC and SC and SC:
1) Chairwomen of hua chi club
2) She likes ppl like yang rong n mayor
3) She is my owner cum ge bi de lao po po
4) She dont like ppl who speaks too loud (i got bugged becoz of tis)
5) She seems to be emotional
6) She luves chicken rice to bits (copyrighted: ma's july 20 de post)
7) She has a daughter n a disown son, a doggie (which is mi), and her next door neighbour de gradma n granddaughter and granddaughter de doggie (which is mi as well) as well as her 4 children (1 of them is mi as well), gradma seems 2 have 2 other grandson (1 of them is edwin n e other is mi la)...so complicated!
8) She is taima n ma de best friend...
9) Her hw is nvm ending de...(again coyrighted from ma)
10) She is broke le...and have no money to buy soft toys for ma...

Ya tats all...muz rmb 2 write a all doggie post 4 mi hoh!

19/7/06

2006-07-19T18:36:00.000+08:00

Well, gal, u think that it is very funny to chat over blog?

p.s. Well, if u insist, then i will continue
p.p.s. Ya, can see that u r realli not feeling well liao...u kept coughing in class la... luckily u didnt vomit out blood lol....
p.p.p.s. go and see a doctor ba, but pls dont be a doct-hopper. hope 2 see u well soon..
p.p.p.p.s. ya procrastinating wouldnt do u any good....e more u procrastinate, e more hw u will accumulate and the more tired u will become....
P.p.p.p.p.s. dont panic whenever u dont noe hw 2 do a qn ...i am sure that u can do it! Believe in urself! Jia you ba!
p.p.p.p.p.p.s. where am i now?

Lol... tHe word stress is really coming out liao...with teachers giving out never ending hw, tests...n even surpise test...there are tight deadline to meet and things like tat...well although i didnt really had the habit of revising everyday, i am now force to revise n revise everyday (in case got surpise test)....this week is really veri stressful for mi lol (even jos also agreed lol)

Haizz

18/7/06

2006-07-18T21:04:00.000+08:00

Juz came here for a quick post nia...

Ya, e euraka competition made us feel that we are stupid la...all the qn like so hard like that n yet they can ans like a pro man....sigh...must read more la....

P.S.The post takes not only brain power but time also...
P.S.S. But ya...seriously, i am sure that sc n rt wanna see a happi elise ma...i think tat they will not be bugged by u ani more...(u happi they happi every body happi)...
P.S.S.S. The above P.s.s. last line is a just a joke nia
P.S.S.S.S Stay happy, and dont think too much!
P.S.S.S.S.S. All tis ia 4 my ma nia la
Ma, WO MEN YONG YUAN ZI CHI NI!
Young ma...still can shout......haha (not like rt n ma!)

(I am juz showing concern 4 my ma nia...pls dont ani hw think hoh!)

My side of the story...

2006-07-17T18:15:00.000+08:00

Well, at this point, i think that it is appropriate for meto tell my side of the story
(This entry is delicated to ma n pinky only...pls ignore!!)

"I really dont like ma la...hw many times must u ask mi...i treat her just like my sis nia" Pinky...

Reality threw me right in... I may be nodding my head as pinky said this, but in reality, i didnt believe it. flashes of memories flashed in my mind...this was about three months ago ba...

Three months ago, i noticed a sudden change in pinky's behaviour. He seems to develop a liking to play with ma's hair. He seems happy when he was with ma. You noe, it was like everyday he was ka jiao(ing) ma everyday. At that point of time, i thought that pinky had a big crush with ma...tats all nia!

At the woodgrove primary campfire night (tats about 1 month later), ma was quite curious as to why jas n huimin noe it as well...she thought that it was i hu told them, but seriously, i didnt ok. Maybe it was pinky hu told them, i dont noe! That day was also when i felt that things were getting abit serious...but at that time i was only thinking about 1 way love nia (pinky like ma la)

In the holiday, we didnt really communicate with each other, ma was busy with her stuff n i was busy with mine...

'Take ur time to think thru wat u really wants...no one can influence u to make a decision"
July 08, the big confession i get from ma...well things were definately getting more n more serious liao...i can sense the confusion in ma, and i managed to talk things out of her...at the same time, i managed to find myself a soul mate, one who i can really trust to and talk to

A few days later, i decided to help pinky. I felt that they like each other and thus i decided to butt in...what i get from pinky was shocking! He didnot like ma! Well, given the surroundings (i tok to him in class), i convinced myself that he was just joking nia...n maybe even because of me...

To cut things short, i ask him yet again (he find me a pain in e neck liao)at the Jubilant Concert. He gave mi a negative ans la...it was only a few minutes later that i recovered from the shock. I decided to help ma since i couldnt help pinky liao...I was like telling him:" Ma is just on the edge of the (love) river...if u like her gd la, u can jump with her into the river...if u dont pls pull her back...lest she gets hurt even more."

Ytd, ma finally noe the truth liao...ma was hurt la (obviously)...she sounded ok when she was breaking the news to me, but i noe deep inside her heart, her heart was like being slashed a million times...n tat she was feeling really hurt. She didnt felt like talking to mi, and i didnt really press her 2 tell...(afterall, i had not went thru all this la)...I left her alone when i knew that she contacted her 2 best frenz....

(Personal message to both of them)

To ma:
I noe that u felt hurt, but take this like a passing metorite...I noe that this is hard, this nid more than ur courage to move on, but dont forget that is always sc, rt n mi are always there for u...dont always take things too hard...well if think that wat ur going thru is sicking , well, then u really dont noe that u r really living in bliss la...last year (u noe wat i go thru la), i was so damm alone la, no one tat i can trust, no one that i can talk to, no one really cared for mi lol, sometimes i felt like crying...but well, u r diff, u got sc, rt and mi down there caring for u n even sharing ur woes with u...dont tink too much about wat others say (it can be hurting sometimes) but ignore them lol....Realli wish to see a happy u soon...

To Pinky:
Well, i dont realli noe wat's going through u mind la...but sometimes i wished to open the big brain of urs and really to analyze u carefully. I was always thought that u like ma u noe...well...even if u dont like her, can u be a bit more tactful...telling her staright in e face wouldnt help...gals r emotional being...u muz understand...n telling sc tat u r juz playing nia makes things even worse...cant u juz stand in her perspective? And yeah, i heard about e incident in class liao...well is it that u wanna hurt her emotionally n phyiscally so tat she will hate u n maybe not like u! Well tats down right stupid la...u gonna 2 hurt her even more....Feel like smacking ur face on the wall u noe!

16/7/06

2006-07-16T13:43:00.000+08:00

"Ur best frenz is just like an umbralla,be it raining or shine, it will always stay by ur side.I may not be a beautiful umbralla ,but will be one that will protect you from rain and wind. Pls don't lose this umbralla!"

(This above quote (from Shu Tian's nick)is orginally in chinese, i transalated into eng. hope that my transalation is still acceptable.)

Hmm, let mi see what task i have on my hand. Geo project(starting to gather cow webs), add maths, emaths revison (if not i will be like catching a bullet train in class), phyiscs revision, maybe even chemistry revison (coz this week got titration spa ma). Like what i say in my previous post, i must find time to study, if not.....Why cant i just return back to my pre schooling days? No stress, no worries...Just take at look at my planner for tis week, i will have my o level listening comprehension, Eureka Science Competion, 2.4km run, spa test (look at the intensity of it)..It is no wonder that i sometimes will feel stress. It not like in sec 1 days, the pace that the teachers set is just nice, not too fast n not to slow..and yet, both both mr ong n miss illysa said that i not stressed enough yet, and more is to come (*groans)...

Hiazz...I guess i will have to take things one at a time ba!

15.7.06

2006-07-15T18:52:00.000+08:00

Well, so many things happened tis fews days...( so dont noe where 2 sae la)

Thursday

Jubilant Concert...All thanks to the wonderful planning, we were worked like a dog la..(i am alradi a dog liao, so i dunt mind la)...Too many people come in at e same time, tat it is too much 4 us 2 handle..(onli pinky, honey star n i was present at the lower seating nia)...Ani way, be4 we worked like xiao, e 3 of us sat down n dicuss (miss heng was like saying us clever la *evil smile). Ya, got a confirmation tat pinky is infeeling n his words do hurt ppl sometimes (as confirm by honey star)...Actually, i dont really noe that in e view of others, i am trustable n understanding person, so i am one that i can trust with la... so, on tat day alone, i hear alot of private stuff la (erm u noe la, matters of the heart)...lala....
The concert overall was good, with good audio system. I like the part where e band played the disney songs...(esp, u will be in my heart).

Fri
Is in a damm lousy mood today. Why? My grandmother make a din early in e morning that i couldnt sleep la. (i dont blame her la, coz she is old liao ma. I am sure that we dont want tat e happen rite).. Yes, sent my computer for servicing. found out that not only my cpu fan spoilt nia...my hard disk also got prob... so i got no choice but e kiss good bye 2 my previous data...

Sat
Got training in e morning...tired sia...train till 1p.m. before e ci decided 2 let us off..cant be blame ma, e parade is on e 29 July ma...So tired sia

Sometimes, i feel tat i am too stressed liao. U see, things tat r booked 2 weeks be4, will also have something that will crop up. Then is like my planner is forever full la...every day need 2 stay back in sch, till very late, come back home still nid 2 use comp 2 do stuff, and every day was like till 9 plus be4 i can finally rest. It seems like teachers are putting 5 days into 4 days la.. (aleast in my context)...welll i am also very afraid of wat ronald n mama say will come true la...ma say tat becoz no ca2, she will losse that motivation 2 study, n grades will suffer. ronald sae tat i every day online, till no time to study. well, it is not tat i dont want 2 study, but i seem 2 have a lot of things on my hands for mi 2 complete, tat i have no time 2 revise...hiazz. Now is like must really pay attention in class( 2 prevent mi frm strugging0, but i always find myself 2 be in a tired mood......

Reply to elise blog

2006-07-12T20:24:00.000+08:00

Hiazz, I feel so sad after reading elise blog leh. sometimes, i dont realli noe wat i am thinking lol, but sometimes, after seeing so many couples ingnoring mi...the feeling of being left alone is not nice la. I noe that u dont mind but sometimes i feel really weird lol. dunt noe y leh, but hoh, i felt that i should leave u guys alone... maybe i am thinking too much ba. (i hope so)

I am really OK now, at least now very peaceful...can finally enjoy my evening in peace, at least i dont need to worry for someone liao.. (well i dont tink e other party (u noe la)even appriecate it lol). Haha...

Ya, I can hear ur xtra loud cough liao....

Before my reader got any wrong intention (i was just showing concern for my mom nia), let mi refresh ur memory of a post i wrote 1 month ago. (Quote nia...the rest u go find archive ba)

"Seriously, i feel perpelxed about why ppl tend to link a boy n a gal as a couple. Juz seeing them chating with each other, or one's tendacy to bully the other, or one competeting with one another n they will sae that the boy like e gal or vice versa. Dont u think that it is childish n an imature way of looking at things. Cant there be friendship between both sexes?"

(funny gal, dont want to use msn to chat, but use blog 2 xpress ideas...u tink it is funny arh, chatting over blog....)

12/7/06

2006-07-12T18:59:00.000+08:00

I dont noe y la, but i was feeling a bit blue today...
In the morning, greeted by a veri bu shuang galvin. He asked mi whether i am going for the duty tomolow n of course, i replied yes la. He immediately pulled a super long face, as if he was not welcoming me la. Well, Sim Ying filled mi la...n of course we all know that all of them dont like galvin la...

Then, during class, i think about what mama sae to mi yesterday la...but hoh, the more i think, i more depressed i become la...You know, all couples will say that they dont mind you tagging along, but in the end it will be them who isolated you lol. for example, the couples that i seen before : Wei Yang n Zi Xin (esp taman) ; Yong Quan n his "honey star"(of course his ex joanne); Alvin n Shu Jing; Shaiha n Harqueel; n the list go on la... Rmb that time Shu Jing ask mi to coach her maths, n alvin tagged along la. In the end i felt like a megawatt light bulb la, as they were doing those kind of mushy stuff in front of mi la...So....u noe wat i wanna sae la.

Next in class, happen a pai sei moment for mi la. Thinking that we are going to have titration lesson, i and hasyimah went to the chem lab ahead of others. So, we feel kind of weird la, when no one was around. Then i sensed that something was amissed and we eventually went back to class, only to be greeted by a roaring class. So, of course my mood was kinda low liao la...Mrs Leong put in a good word for us la, saying that we are very "enthu' about titration...Shu Jing was like asking mi not to sulk further, as later it could affect the examiner n my mood la...Diao!

Well, after school, we had our oral exam la... It couldnt helped by the fact that i was feeling low la. But hoh, all thanks to elise la....( well, we merely chated),i suddenly feel hyper again (dont noe y leh).Xie Xie ba! There was i, my mood lifted up liao, and suddenly i feel more confided liao. Then it was my turn la...passage was kinda easy n the conversation is the kind which i usually thrives for...(those kind of jiang tao li u noe) and i was helped by the fact that my mom (real one la) always counsel mi la and also i always give advice to ppl la (u should know wat i mean la)! The conversation was on children senting their parents to court and the fact the society labelled them as unfilial. I think i was the rare ones around who gave a sit on the fence ans. But seriously, i feel that it is raher debateable, and besides, giving both views showed that you are matured in your thinking and that you are not biased lol. THere, i was happily explained to the examiner about the reason why it is ok to sent parents to court. Suddenly, she throw mi a qn that i had momententarily loss of words la. (she asked: Can u think of an instances that u cant accept children senting parent to court) So, normally i will be loss la...but dont noe y also, a sudden thought flashed by mi n the floodgates opened....

Still thinking about my oral, i went home to ask my mom la... Well, she basically agreed with me that it is good to mention both sides as it is hard to judge which party is at wrong...

P.S. Taima, you spell my name @ ur link wrong liao (ur blog la). My name is J-O-N-A-T-H-A-N. (or u can put Jon Jon la)Pls change!

Hiazz....

11/7/06

2006-07-11T18:49:00.000+08:00

I dont noe why, but i have a kind of social rejection feeling. In class, i can't really talk much with people around me. Diyana and Dian always chat in Malay (and thus i can't understand), Darryl sedoms talk to mi, much least shu jing and shun cong. Even when i want to go to Xue Jun there and chat between lesson, i can't, becoz tongues will wag la ba ba (also becoz i dont want to be a lampbulb there!)So there am I, only the books and the table are willing them to accompany mi lol...u noe, ppl actually sae i flirt la, with both boys and girls, but actually everything is so damm superfical. It's just only a show nia... Everyone in their cliches, and i can't really have one who i can really confide in... Yes, i may have found one, but i think that it is better for both of not to speak to each other too much, as u noe the tongues will wag and the story goes on. I dont really want to go through my sec 2 years again , It is so horrible. It was only when i am in sec 2 that i realize that i am alone, coz no one speaks and stand up for mi. There i was, against a tide of rumors. No one to turn to when i am depressed, sad (even pinky), and u noe the kind of feeling is horrible. After all we are humans ma. I dont want to go thru that again, really......

10/7/06

2006-07-10T18:53:00.000+08:00

Yup, been feeling better nowadays.......Thx ba!

Birthday Present

Hmm, it seems funny that i am writing about birthday present when my birthdae is like alreadi over for like two months la...Well, i didnt recieve presents, as ususl...(actualli i cant remember when someone gave mi a present)..Haizz, i alreadi doesnt care if any one give mi a present la, or even rmb my birthday la... if someone realli want to give mi a present, well, i hope that it is a least something sincere. I don't realli care the price of the gift lol. Coz also long time ppl nvm gvie mi present liao ma, so i hope tat it can be something that i can rmb for some time la....

Jurong Island Trip

Well, quite boring la, however useful la...Learnt a few things about geo (the clustering of industeries to reduce cost la), and of course some biochemistry thing'...

Well got a good news from agnes....those who are borned after 1st april de ppl no nid 2 do pull up...Yeah!

8/7/06

2006-07-08T13:20:00.000+08:00

Well, three days nvm update liao. Spider webs are starting to gather liao...

Yesterday, i saw miss gina lim and we chatted for a while. You know, miss gina is our three month geography teacher lol. Actually, i saw her in school for the past week. I always remember her for her fond of playing my hair. After her three month stint in AI, she said that she wanted to go back to private sector to work la. But, she is back! And the best thing is that she still remember us! Hiazz..

Then, meet up with 3 sec 2(with yong quan la)shivani, sandy and nazilah to dicuss about the unit tee. The design is almost settled la,onli the colour of the unit tee nia. Some say green la, black la, grey la, blue la...*faint liao. So argue, argue and still no decision made. Feeling hungry, we went to North point to makan and dicuss as well. At the bus stop, saw sc. She updated mi on the lastest happenings of the family la.(well u noe la)....

Hiazz, nw still got the report haven update yet. That susan arh, say she want 2 give mi the report and till now. Well, u think i super man isit? I tell u i am not free 2 play games if u lol...

Yup, i am touched. After so long (rmb got 1 post i sae tat no one realli understand hu i am), i managed 2 find someone who understand what i realli feel and think...managed to realli open up and feel better now...

Wed

2006-07-05T17:38:00.000+08:00

Been feeling more and more slack thesedays...
For np, been recluctant to join stuffs.. for example the youth day parade i dont even feel like going there. In the end, i heard that zhijun had a miserable time there... someone apparently threw a bottle down and she was splashed like xiao....haha..den, the national camp...i didnt even noe about it (Jazli sent e email at nite, as u noe i nvm read mails tat r sent tat late, i onli noe it todae) zhijun n yongquan joined liao...Haha....den the unit tee thingy, again, i was the last to noe about it...hiaz...

read something meaningful from the Youthbeat, a PA seasports club magazine:

Pond of reflection:

ThE Most--
The most selfish one letter word...'I" Avoid It
The most satisfying two letter word..."We" Use It
The most poisonous three-letter word..."ego" Kill It
The most used four-letter word..."love' Value It
The most pleasing five-letter word...'Smile" Keep it
The fastest spreading six letter word..."Rumour" Ignore it
The hardest working seven-letter word..."Success" Achieve it
The most enviable eight-letter word..."Jealousy" Distance It
The most powerful nine-letter word..."Knowledge" Acquire It
ThE most essential ten letter word..."Confidence" Trust it

(Jenny Lee, Priscilla Goh, Cristopher Beh, Pond of Reflection. The Youthbeat. Issue 009, pg 7)

Hope tat tis is meaningful to u ba. Live by it!!

1st week of school wrap-up

2006-07-02T10:56:00.000+08:00

1st week of school had just ended. Well, as usual, i was thrown with various task and repnsibities from teachers, as if i am the superman. 1st week nia, and teacher asked mi to join at least 4 competition, excluding the bio-tech competition. Eureka! science competion (organized by Raffles Junior College), a maths and science competition at Yishun Junior College, national crystal growing competion(organized by nus)a chinese speech competion, were the competition i was asked to join. I rejected the last two, simply because i did not have the extra time to commit, especially when we are taking over soon (5 July). Besides all these extra commitments, i realize that my O Level mother tongue exam is coming soon. Firstly, my oral is on the 12th July. Sia la, den listening compre will come soon....So, i am now enjoying my day off...

A sneak peek into my July Planner:
July 1--Youth Day Holiday
July 5--Ai ROD parade
July 12--O Level Mother tongue oral examination
July 14--School holiday (due to polling day)
July 15--ROD Parade training
July 18--Eureka Science Competition at Raffles Junior College
July 21--First Parade since we take over
July 29--Science Competition at Yishun Junior College
August 1--Bio Tech Fair

29/6/06

2006-07-01T18:31:00.000+08:00

yA!!

gERMANY won Argentina... I am so happy. Jens Lemman is definatety the hero of germany, saving 2 penalities...haha...germany won 4-2 on penalities kick. Italy beat Ukraine by 3-0.

Sianzation in progress..

Duty

2006-06-30T16:37:00.000+08:00

Woah, today was the school annual sports day. As usual, we were called to do duty la (give us a reason not to participate.....joking nia). wELl, doing duty is the fastest way and the surest way of letting u to fall alsleep...coz damm boring ma. Some things happened todae la. I was supposed to guard the gate la. Of course, there were students who tried to escape la. So, there was this two indian students, after being denied of getting away, did something funny. At one private corner, they threw down their bag, and came to the gate and tried to go out of the stadium by saying that they wanna train for their sports day event. (PPl hu wanted to train outside were allowed la). In the end, it become police and thief....Den ho, there was this group of upper sec who tried to be funny. They threw down the mineral bottle (as if this was their house), spray water on us. Fuck off la. Then later chipeng made a terrible mistake. Thinking that mr ho sae tat we can releash liao, he told us to leave our position and to fall in, when actually it is not time to be releashed. Happily, we thought that we can leave, till ms chong called yong quan to correct the mistake. Outside, we saw the veri exploding mdn joe. She was furious that chipeng made such a mistake. Of course, she scolded him. By then, about 20 or more students had left the stadium...lala....

Later, follow yongquan and daniel go coastway abd makan. There saw "mummy" and "ah ma". Only to find out that the guides call yong quan "giraffe" becoz of his long neck. Hahaa...

Germany will win Argentina....

28/6/06

2006-06-28T17:43:00.000+08:00

Finally, after much spectation, it is known to us that on 5 July, we will be taking over. Well this may seem as a good news, but the bad things comes after that. Firstly, we will not be planning the ROD Parade.(reason being is that the area is having a combined rod parade with area 2), dunno also wether we will be planning the farewell party...All this are traditions of the unit, and now we can't carry on the tradition. Sad sia, is it that they dont trust us, after that horribly done campfire. FYI, chipeng gave us a pep talk this morning, and wanting us to continue his effort of bringing the unit up...Also, as an nco, u r susposed to set urselves as a role model to the students....
So, on 9 July, it will the D day as we know our post!

World Cup
Well, Brazil beat Ghana by 3-0...Ronaldo break the record liao....by scoring his 15th world cup goal 5 minutes from the starting...sia la... but brazil finally win in style, samba magic is in the air now..
25 Moves, 1 Goal!!

Sad thing this morning. Spain lost 1-3 to France. Well actually, i expect spain to go all the way lol, after their heorics by beating ukraine 4-0....It definately break my heart now!

Quarter Final Match Schedule:

Friday:
1) Germany vs Argentina
Kick off time (S'pore): 11.00p.m.
2) Italy vs Ukraine
Kick off time (S'pore): 03.00a.m

Sat:
1) England vs Portugal
Kick off time (S'pore) : 11.00p.m.
4) Brazil vs France
Kick off time (S'pore) : 03.00a.m.

Spain, Holland n Australia had gone....Who will be next? Well, i predict that the last four standing will be brazil, germany, italy and portugal....Lets see if i am right.

Sun

2006-06-25T16:40:00.000+08:00

Time flies....tomorrow i am going back to school liao...sigh....the holiday is like so short lol...

Yesterday, i went bbqing with jiahui, agnes, alvin, lihao n tuna...This bbq is at pasir ris park. The bbq pit is so far from downtown lol....need 2 buy things must walk so far...
one time, i was like buying charcoal for them...well, as i was quite tired liao, i walked slowly lol....In the end they thought that i abandon them (as i was taking my
bag ma) n i took a long time...
Yes, this is the first time that i managed to eat many cooked bbqed chicken drumbstick... Whenever i went to bbq, the chicken is like always half cooked nia, n looked so digusting lol..;
Yes, this trip also meant alot of teasing from lihao, jiahui n tuna lol. haizz, getting used liao, getting ma mu liao....

Well, i juz got the pri 5 camp photos...so i will share if u here ba.

gtg liao.....

Hurt

2006-06-23T15:13:00.000+08:00

There is now a raging fire that lies beneath my soul, threatning 2 fully explode soon....
Here's an excerpt from jiahui's blog:
" todae is totally stupid, c0s today was so0oooooo fun"
(she wrote the entry on 22/6/06)

Ooo, so they enjoyed themselves, while i am made to look like a fool! Is this how they supposed to treat a friend...oh yeah, i forget, they might not even have treated me as a friend...i am digusted, totally digusted at the fact that they enjoyed themselves without even thinking of others....I used to think that all ppl r friendly n sociable ...n they have just proven to mi that i am wrong.......

Well as the DISC workshop has proven, i am a task orientated person , meaning i cared more of the task at hand, rather than e ppl around mi..i have tried to change, n yet ppl sae tat i flirt la, n so more rumors were created....

I am tired...veri weary alreadi. I noe, i may not have the luxuries tat ppl have like a handphone bah bah...ppl often laugh at mi la....i have tried to change , i tolerated , keeping everything to myself...i feel so alone in this big n confused world tat i live in, nobody really noe hu i am , everything is so supreficial, well ppl usually looked at the exterial rather than e inner beauty of one...... sometimes, when i am alone, i feel like crying...seriously....but i didnt...coz i always held by my philosophy: tat ppl one day will understand mi n not to look at the exterial...but i am been proven wrong again n again.....

Seriously, i once have the thought of not t attending the bbq tomorrow..... But seeing it on thiru,(well his wish is to have a gathering), i decided to go.........

Hurt.....

22/06/06

2006-06-22T15:57:00.000+08:00

What the hell!!! I juz realized i am the biggest fool in the world!!! Well, Agnes said on wed tat they change the buying of bbq n was supposed to meet them 2 p.m @ northpoint.... perviously, they have said to meet @ 11.30 a.m. well, i sae tat it is fine wif mi n i went there.....Guess wat happens? I waited there for a fucking two hours n yet no one came!....So, feeling super pissed off, i came back home onli to find out that my two hours was wasted. U noe wat? Agnes changed the time again! Again! (how many times did they wanna change? cant they juz fix 1 time n tat every one can go?)....they shifted it to 12 noon.... yet no one even bothered to give mi a call and to inform mi as well! All thanks to agnes n co, i waited there for nth! Is it u guys think tat i have so much time to spare ? or is it tat u guys are treating mi like a dog, ordering mi here n there n treating mi like a fool! Well, tuna is right this time.... i shouldn't have even sae that i want to go....i should have slack off in the comfort of my house n enjoy myself wen e bbq comes....
Fuck off la.....

Last night's result:

Grp C:
1) Netherland 0-0 Argentina
Man of match: Tevez Carlos
-Both teams advanced to the next round.

2)Ivory Coast 3-2 Serbia n Montengro
Goals: (Ivory Coast) Dindane Aruna (37' pen , 67'), Kalou Bonaventure (86' pen)
(Serbia n Montengro) Zigic Nikola (10'), Ilic Sasa (20')
Man of match: Dindane Aruna

Grp D:
3)Portugal 2-1 Mexico
Goals: (Portugal) Maniche(6'),Simao Sabrosa (24'pen)
(Mexico) Fonseca Jose (29')
Man of the match : Fonseca Jose

4) Iran 1-1 Angola
Goals: (iRAn) BAKHTIARIZADEH Sohrab (75')
(Angola)Flavio (60')
Man of the match: Ze Kalanga

Both portugal n mexico advanced to the next round.

Tonite's fixture (S'pore time):
10.00p.m.--Czech Republic vs Italy
10.00p.m.--Ghana vs USA
03.00a.m.--Croatia vs Australia
03.00a.m.--Japan vs Brazil

Pissing off....

taman photos

2006-06-21T17:31:00.000+08:00

taman photos....

-e best place ever 2 sleep...well at leasr wen ur in taman

rapids...

oops....i feel hungry nw....

-guides....smile!

a traditional way of cooking rice.....

hu the mad man?

e rest u go to ai website ba...

Digital Fortress

2006-06-20T15:38:00.000+08:00

I recently brought a book...well, its' dan brown's digital fortress.

Here's the excerpt:
"When the National Security Agency's invincible code-breaking machine encounters a mysterious code that it cannot break, the agency calls in its head cryptographer, Susan Fletcher, a brillant, beautiful mathematician. What she uncovers send shock waves through the corridors of power. The NSA is being held hostage-not by guns or bombs, but by a code so complex that if not released would cripple U.S. intelligence.
Caught in an accelerating tempest of secrecy n lies, Fletcher battles to save the agency she believes in. Betrayed on all sides, she finds herself fighting not only for the country but for her life, and in the end, for the life of the man she loves...."

Well sound interesting arh...Acutally, before reading the book, i heard from people that dan brown's book is information packed...I was afraid that the book would bore me to death...but no! It kept mi glued...You will never know the ending unless u finished reading the book...The plot is not straight, meaning that it is full of twist n suspends...

Last night's match:
Grp G:
1)Togo 0-2 Sweden
Goals : Frei Alexander (15'), Barnetta Tranquillo (88')
Man of the match: Frei Alexander

Grp H:
2)Spain 3-1 Tunsia
Goals: Spain--Raul (71'), Torres fRENando (76' n 91+pen)
Tunsia--Mnari Jaouhar (8')
Man of the match:Xavi Alonso

3)Saudi Arabia 0-4 Ukraine
Goals:Rusol Andriy (4'), Rebrov Serhiy (36'), Shevchenko Andriy (46'), Kalinichenko Maksym (84')
Man of the match: Kalinichenko Maksym
-With the result, Spain advanced to the next round.

Tonite's fixtures (S'pore time):
10.00p.m.-- Ecuador vs Germany
10.00p.m.-- Costa Rica vs Poland
03.00a.m.-- Paraguay vs Tridad n Tobago
03.00a.m.-- Sweden vs England

Peace

2006-06-19T11:57:00.000+08:00

Sigh, why is time flying so fast. Next week, school will reopens liao. Actually, i dont want to go school so fast. When i am back in school, i will again face my stress problems (like for example e stres of taking over, e stress of studies, esp o level mother tongue is coming), e same year old gossip which seems not to stop, the expectation thats teachers have on mi n finally the mountain high homework tat will definately come......Life isnt a bed of roses.....

Btw, i crawl up late to come "live" action of the world cup. Brazil vs Australia match. Yeah, actually i was hoping that australia could do a ghana, by at least drawing e brazil team. Well, the aussies did not let mi down,(thought they did not win in e end) at least they put up a good fight... well of course we can 4get tat e fred broke record la...last 39s den score a goal....sigh

Last nite result:
Grp F:
1)Brazil 2-0 Australia
7.Adriano (45')
21.Fred (90')
-Ze Roberto is the man of the match.
Champions Brazil advanced to the next round.

2)Japan 0-0 Croatia
-Nakata Hidetosi is the man of the match.
With the result, both japan n croatia's qualifying hopes is hanging by the thread.

Grp H:
1)France 1-1 South Korea
12.Thierry Henry (9') 7.Park Ji Sung (81')
-Park Ji Sung is the man of the match.

Well, i juz brought dan brown's digital fortess...great book, i dont noe e eending till i read to e end, i was glued to the book sia...learnt alot of knowledge as well.
LEarnt about codes n everything....
Juz provide an example...
-mmjtyeohninaasan
-break it to get e hidden meaning....